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well.... im pretty depressed atm! jan phnd me last nite n we spoke alot. cant stop wanting 2 go back 2 her... but i know its not going to change anything! this is just so sadistic, why do i always fall for people that i know it wont work. there is always some obstacle... im at work, staring blankely at my computer waiting for time to speed up so i can go home and stare at my cieling till tomorow when i get to come back here and stare at my computer again. i havent done much work lately, just been listening to my music and finding temporary escapes to 4get things that i should have forgotten already...*sigh*....
Reel big fish - Beer
this song made me laugh coz it seems to have come on just as i was thinkin bout how im gona get some money to get pissd tonight. alcohole seems 2 have become my escape lately!! My friend sheth is getting worried coz im probably the most honest 2 him outa all my friends.
parents are having troubles 2, my dads investments are doing really shit and he's losing alota money... never knew we were so similar until i started talkin 2 my mom about stuff! his self worth is so low lately and thinks he's letting his family down... gona take him out for a beer this weekend so we can finally talk. we arent close... strange being so similar yet so far apart.
*sigh* another msg from jan... god were apart and still we fight. my ideals in life have changed so much in the last month. my outlook on life has turned from being happy to just being...
hmmm this is probably my longest post like ever! go me...
and another msg from jan, we decided not 2 be friends coz it just hurts us even more... i need 2 get laid
Reel big fish - Beer
this song made me laugh coz it seems to have come on just as i was thinkin bout how im gona get some money to get pissd tonight. alcohole seems 2 have become my escape lately!! My friend sheth is getting worried coz im probably the most honest 2 him outa all my friends.
parents are having troubles 2, my dads investments are doing really shit and he's losing alota money... never knew we were so similar until i started talkin 2 my mom about stuff! his self worth is so low lately and thinks he's letting his family down... gona take him out for a beer this weekend so we can finally talk. we arent close... strange being so similar yet so far apart.
*sigh* another msg from jan... god were apart and still we fight. my ideals in life have changed so much in the last month. my outlook on life has turned from being happy to just being...
hmmm this is probably my longest post like ever! go me...
and another msg from jan, we decided not 2 be friends coz it just hurts us even more... i need 2 get laid