May 11, 2005 15:04
and it's time for me to go. The goodbyes are killing me, but I wouldn't trade anything. It looks like I'm leaving tomorrow morning and on my way to my mom's from there. I will spend some time there and then go to Washington. I will miss Cali. It's been my home since I was born. A new state; a new life. It sounds exciting, but it's fucking scary. I don't know what to expect. I hope to survive it. Everything is packed and ready to go. This house is so empty, like no one has ever lived here for the 12 years that my family has. There's a melancholy seeping throughout these walls. My last night, my last hours in my home. I'll miss the good times and try to forget the bad. I will hear a song and remember times long past in a state I will barely remember. The salt air is still vivid to me, but it won't always be that way. Goodbye to my home and the friends I leave behind. I will forever think back on this place and feel the love that I thought I never had. Thank you.
Peace, love and some tears,
Sarah
P.S. I'm not quitting this journal. Just saying goodbye for a little bit.