Hello 2005
May this year be ten times better than last year. Probably one of the worst years of my life. This year is not starting our great, though. For starters, one of my best friends is moving away....I know I can't control it, but there you go. The other I could control; entirely my fault. I wanted to something fun for New Years. I've never done anything before, so I was like "Fuck it. Let's go all out." Well, I did. I went to the stupidest fucking party ever (Note to self: never go to a frat party again). With my cousin that I haven't hung out with in years. It was good to get to know her better, though. Anyways, we left the party and went to her house and got pretty wasted. First time I have ever gotten that wasted before. Woke up feeling okay this morning, but a little nauseated. Ended up making myself throw up just to feel better. I worked. I then hung out with my parents, who are none the wiser, and having a pleasant day indeed.
You know I will miss you so much when you are gone. You almost made me cry with what you said. The funny thing is, I wish the same exact things for you. I want you to be happy. I've seen some of things that you have suffered through and I have felt helpless about it. I'm not good in those kind of situations, I've never been. But I've always wanted to see you happy. I was just glad that in the rent situation, I was able to help in some way. I made my dad read the part where he should stop nagging me. Hopefully, he'll listen. I wish you and your family all of the best. And please know that I will be here for you. I wish we could have been closer, but I'm not that type of person. I've been trained my whole life to be guarded, and I guess I do that very well. So, if I seem unemotional or uncaring at times, I'm really trying to empathize with you; to feel your pain so you are not alone...I don't know what else to say, except that I love you and I hope you get a chance to live the life that you deserve.
That's all I really have to say for now.
Peace and love with many hugs,
Sarah
ps: I would like to thank fortunateizzi for the new icon.
You know I will miss you so much when you are gone. You almost made me cry with what you said. The funny thing is, I wish the same exact things for you. I want you to be happy. I've seen some of things that you have suffered through and I have felt helpless about it. I'm not good in those kind of situations, I've never been. But I've always wanted to see you happy. I was just glad that in the rent situation, I was able to help in some way. I made my dad read the part where he should stop nagging me. Hopefully, he'll listen. I wish you and your family all of the best. And please know that I will be here for you. I wish we could have been closer, but I'm not that type of person. I've been trained my whole life to be guarded, and I guess I do that very well. So, if I seem unemotional or uncaring at times, I'm really trying to empathize with you; to feel your pain so you are not alone...I don't know what else to say, except that I love you and I hope you get a chance to live the life that you deserve.
That's all I really have to say for now.
Peace and love with many hugs,
Sarah
ps: I would like to thank fortunateizzi for the new icon.