where does 'crazy' begin.
i actually think i am loosing it. i dont even make sence anymore. i cant remember anything or hold a normal conversation. bahhh.
im scared to go home. i was so excited to leave this place, but now there is so much comfort in having my own bathroom and having the freedom all day to b/p without anyone noticing or commenting.
I guess I wont be so insane and lonely. but still. f how am i going to manage with 6 other people in the house. SIX. plus me makes seven. fuckkk. times 3 bathrooms. that will never work, who thought this up anyways.
Ive reached that point where i know this is my way out. I didnt just reach it.. it was about a week ago. I felt my soul trying to escape. i didnt even believe in the whole soul idea ever before, but this was fucked and my soul definitly said fuck you and all of this body ill see you later. but then it came back. or atleast part of it is still hanging out, seeing where this will take me at least.
does that make sence. no. i am getting to the crazy point.
soo... food wise. i am fucked.
i cant keep anything down. not even raisins.which are my okay foods. no not even that. f this noise.
i got an espresso maker for christmas from the people i work for that i tryed out for the first time today. my gosh its amazing. i havent had that high of a caffine high in months. love it.
11 more days of work. hooray for quitting everything i start and commit to, yay me.
im scared to go home. i was so excited to leave this place, but now there is so much comfort in having my own bathroom and having the freedom all day to b/p without anyone noticing or commenting.
I guess I wont be so insane and lonely. but still. f how am i going to manage with 6 other people in the house. SIX. plus me makes seven. fuckkk. times 3 bathrooms. that will never work, who thought this up anyways.
Ive reached that point where i know this is my way out. I didnt just reach it.. it was about a week ago. I felt my soul trying to escape. i didnt even believe in the whole soul idea ever before, but this was fucked and my soul definitly said fuck you and all of this body ill see you later. but then it came back. or atleast part of it is still hanging out, seeing where this will take me at least.
does that make sence. no. i am getting to the crazy point.
soo... food wise. i am fucked.
i cant keep anything down. not even raisins.which are my okay foods. no not even that. f this noise.
i got an espresso maker for christmas from the people i work for that i tryed out for the first time today. my gosh its amazing. i havent had that high of a caffine high in months. love it.
11 more days of work. hooray for quitting everything i start and commit to, yay me.