Sitting here thinking about what today meant to me...
And I realized that today was the first time in a long time that I haven't spent my mother's day or my mother's birthday with her. It got me depressed, because oh... I have a good relationship with my mother. So I called her today, which actually took a while, considering that my mother is deaf and couldn't here the phone ringing, but I got to talk to her.
Winding down to the end of the year and getting ready for finals. Getting close to due dates for lit papers and haven't the foggiest clue of what I'm going to write about for not only one but TWO papers! Joy.
I'm also slowly but surely climbing up a very steep slope of depression, but at least I have sessed out the roots and/or cause of said depression. They go hand in hand with the end of the my first and only semester at SC. I've met some great people, people that I have become very close to... some closer than I would have wanted, but that's the way the cookie crumbles. Anyway... look at that rabbit trail... seriously sometimes I think I have ADD. Where was I? Oh yeah, leaving behind friends that I may never see again... (knocks on wood)
And although this may not be a big deal to a lot of people, it's a big deal to me. I generally don't let myself open up to people for fear of getting hurt. I did so once already this year and it wasn't very pleasant. A very silly notion and one that has kept me from making friends from great people.
And again with the digression. So, people have wormed their ways into my life... some subtly and others have just bulldozed their way in... (jury is still out if that is good or bed... I guess only time will tell:) ) and now that I'm going to have to say goodbye, I fear there will be a piece of me missing. Needless to say I will miss all the friends I have made here at SC.
So, there is the main causes of my depression and I am starting to pull my way up out of it, and I do truly hope that this won't be the last I see of most of them.
Good luck to those who have finals and good luck to those of us poor English Lit majors with fianl papers to write. Much Love!
Winding down to the end of the year and getting ready for finals. Getting close to due dates for lit papers and haven't the foggiest clue of what I'm going to write about for not only one but TWO papers! Joy.
I'm also slowly but surely climbing up a very steep slope of depression, but at least I have sessed out the roots and/or cause of said depression. They go hand in hand with the end of the my first and only semester at SC. I've met some great people, people that I have become very close to... some closer than I would have wanted, but that's the way the cookie crumbles. Anyway... look at that rabbit trail... seriously sometimes I think I have ADD. Where was I? Oh yeah, leaving behind friends that I may never see again... (knocks on wood)
And although this may not be a big deal to a lot of people, it's a big deal to me. I generally don't let myself open up to people for fear of getting hurt. I did so once already this year and it wasn't very pleasant. A very silly notion and one that has kept me from making friends from great people.
And again with the digression. So, people have wormed their ways into my life... some subtly and others have just bulldozed their way in... (jury is still out if that is good or bed... I guess only time will tell:) ) and now that I'm going to have to say goodbye, I fear there will be a piece of me missing. Needless to say I will miss all the friends I have made here at SC.
So, there is the main causes of my depression and I am starting to pull my way up out of it, and I do truly hope that this won't be the last I see of most of them.
Good luck to those who have finals and good luck to those of us poor English Lit majors with fianl papers to write. Much Love!