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Updating is something that I haven't done for a LONG while.
But it has its reasons............
On the 22nd of October my dad passed away.
When I saw the number on the phone display I knew that it had happend, he had gotten admitted to the hospital a couple of days before.
So I kind of knew that it was only a matter of time.
I still can't believe that my dad is gone, I won't get to hug him anymore, I'm gonna miss all the late night conversations we would have about everything and anything. I hate the fact that I can nog longer write him an e-mail or call him and just ask him about advice or just ask a simple question.
All I can say is that I'm going to miss my big teddybear of a father. ;)
On November 2nd I flew back to Sweden in order to attend the funeral that was held on november 5th.
It feelt great seeing my mom and my sisters again, despite how everything was.
The cermony was really beautiful, it was snowing the entire time.
When I saw the casket when we entered the church it finally hit me that it was real, I could no longer hold back the tears.
Later on at the memorial service the funeral director read up the names off the people who had donated to cancer research in my dads name, it was about 30 names.
I talked memories with my sister, my best friend and some of our neighbours.
For some reason I feel relieved that part is over and I can begin to work my way through it day by day and remember all the great times I had with him. I feel blessed that I have such a wonderful family, a great hostfamily that has been a really great support and a huge amount of great friends here in the US that has been there for me.
But it has its reasons............
On the 22nd of October my dad passed away.
When I saw the number on the phone display I knew that it had happend, he had gotten admitted to the hospital a couple of days before.
So I kind of knew that it was only a matter of time.
I still can't believe that my dad is gone, I won't get to hug him anymore, I'm gonna miss all the late night conversations we would have about everything and anything. I hate the fact that I can nog longer write him an e-mail or call him and just ask him about advice or just ask a simple question.
All I can say is that I'm going to miss my big teddybear of a father. ;)
On November 2nd I flew back to Sweden in order to attend the funeral that was held on november 5th.
It feelt great seeing my mom and my sisters again, despite how everything was.
The cermony was really beautiful, it was snowing the entire time.
When I saw the casket when we entered the church it finally hit me that it was real, I could no longer hold back the tears.
Later on at the memorial service the funeral director read up the names off the people who had donated to cancer research in my dads name, it was about 30 names.
I talked memories with my sister, my best friend and some of our neighbours.
For some reason I feel relieved that part is over and I can begin to work my way through it day by day and remember all the great times I had with him. I feel blessed that I have such a wonderful family, a great hostfamily that has been a really great support and a huge amount of great friends here in the US that has been there for me.