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i deleted my entry about how happy i was. so my ex colin, he claims im messed up in the head because he hurt me real bad three times. the first time we we're something but not going out then one night hes like im going out with natalie gooch now so we cant talk anymore. and i was like wtf i got so mad. but then they broke up and he like would do anything for me from october-february. then the second time i had finally forgiven him and like i started liking him again we went out for valentines day and i was like hm i like him so i kissed him on the cheek. and i was thinking about telling him but when he asked me i was like NO i cant like you cus ive been hurt by you already and history shouldn't repeat itself. so then he went for one of my friends, ashley. but i still REALLY liked him. then he asked me if he could go out with ashley and i said no he went out with her anyways. then somehow i messed there relationship up. i do not remember how but i did. then we didnt talk for likr 3 months then we started talking again and we hung out a whole bunch and i realllllly started liking him and he kissed me a few times then i find out hes 'talking' to ashton. so i was like wtf. then i asked her about it and she was like, ya were talking like exclusively ya kno? so i waas like oh shit wtf. then some of my friends told me that colin & ashley h had done stuff like that day ALSO same day he saw me. i was ticked so i told ashtons best friend to figure out if i should tell her about it, then it makes me look like i was trying to break them up. wtf. cool right. he makes me so mad. stupid boy. thats one of the reasons i like jeff so much he would NEVER do that to me. he would NEVER lead me on. he would NEVER have 2 girls at the same time. hes not that kinda guy. i think ashtons a cool girl n all i think that colin doesn't deserve her though. he really doesnt. whatever though its not my room to say anything at all. love you guys. xoxo