Why?
That is indeed the question. Why?
Why do I feel like the kick-me doll of the universe?
Why is it that when I try to better myself, my situation, or try to become what my parents told me I could become, I get knocked down, drug out, and otherwise "put in my place"?
Why is it that no matter how open you become, someone or something will slam you closed?
Why is it that no matter how much love you give, it doesn't help anything or anyone you care for?
Why is it that I can try so hard, and fail at everything?
And finally, Why does it hurt so fucking much?
Why do I feel like the kick-me doll of the universe?
Why is it that when I try to better myself, my situation, or try to become what my parents told me I could become, I get knocked down, drug out, and otherwise "put in my place"?
Why is it that no matter how open you become, someone or something will slam you closed?
Why is it that no matter how much love you give, it doesn't help anything or anyone you care for?
Why is it that I can try so hard, and fail at everything?
And finally, Why does it hurt so fucking much?