and home is nowhere
I might be able to go back to the house back in Cape Coral this week or next week, I don't know. I thought I'd never say this but I'm starting to miss home. I don't really have any news, but be ready for a really REALLY long entry here below.
And umm, My ljournal has been going down for no reason, so I hope this gets posted. I wrote it just to vent out some of my troubles...since I don't have a place to write and play music, I had to vent here.
Today I have been looking and reading through old emails. Damn. I went through alot. How did I ever get out of that mess! I mean, Having about 6 Emails with people I cared for, spit in my face and finding out all the lies through others, and in the middle of all of this, I lose my bestfriend and the person I cared for the most to the drama. I also went through my old journals on Woohu, Xanga, NeedlessPanic, and Blurty and found a discovery. This could have all been Stopped! The core of all the drama was 2002, Entering Freshman Year. If I never got online the Monday of Sept. 23, 2002 and never asked that one simple question that created this war with emotions and caused the split between friends in my view (the ones that were close and the ones that weren't). If someone could give me the hours of 3:00pm to 5:00pm on Monday, September 23rd, 2002, I could go and stop this. If I stoped this, I probably wouldn't be here, talking to you. I'd be in Ohio right now on vacation with friends. I would have never went to Kaio and played and met who I did. And I'd never have the chance to off to Unity Gain and be friends with who I am friends with now. So, It is and was a lose/lose situation. *sigh*
And umm, My ljournal has been going down for no reason, so I hope this gets posted. I wrote it just to vent out some of my troubles...since I don't have a place to write and play music, I had to vent here.
Today I have been looking and reading through old emails. Damn. I went through alot. How did I ever get out of that mess! I mean, Having about 6 Emails with people I cared for, spit in my face and finding out all the lies through others, and in the middle of all of this, I lose my bestfriend and the person I cared for the most to the drama. I also went through my old journals on Woohu, Xanga, NeedlessPanic, and Blurty and found a discovery. This could have all been Stopped! The core of all the drama was 2002, Entering Freshman Year. If I never got online the Monday of Sept. 23, 2002 and never asked that one simple question that created this war with emotions and caused the split between friends in my view (the ones that were close and the ones that weren't). If someone could give me the hours of 3:00pm to 5:00pm on Monday, September 23rd, 2002, I could go and stop this. If I stoped this, I probably wouldn't be here, talking to you. I'd be in Ohio right now on vacation with friends. I would have never went to Kaio and played and met who I did. And I'd never have the chance to off to Unity Gain and be friends with who I am friends with now. So, It is and was a lose/lose situation. *sigh*