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like always i was watching the last half of oprah after dance and i think i've figured a few things out. when my sisters or i have a problem with someone (friend or boyfriend) she always freaks out about how people are suppose to treat each other, and it's just not normal. but not only does she freak she's insanely overprotective in the strangest situations. and sometimes it's like her work is more important than her kids. it's not as if i think she always has to take care of me, i'd prefer she didn't do so much, but for example today i called her on my way home and she was so caught up talking to my dad that i said something important and she was like "yea whatever" and it's not just today, but many days when i call her. she has told me stories of past sexual abuse and mental abuse but i never realized that those issues could be her reason for making me feel completely unwanted somedays. don't get me wrong though. i love my parents and they love me and do everything for me, but they do too much and don't really try to get on my level with things. and now that they have realized i'll be gone soon they seem to not want to get involved.