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well so much happened this week where shall i begin? i was going to update this a couple of days ago but had things on my mind.
on sunday last i cut myself and then i cut in the same cut again and again and i reckon either I cut too deep of on a vein or artery or something as it bled for 6 hours continuosly..... i put bandages on it but it soaked through... nothing seemed to stop it. i felt feint and i think i mustve lost a lot of blood my clothes are covered in it.... and i mean convered. i think i scared myself as i thought i was going to die. it wouldve been better going to the hospital i think.
well so after that i had a talk with tania and she is worried about me and sent me a letter and picture of her at the ball today. i realised that if i carry on cutting then i may as well just be cutting her becuase that is what i am doing. im hurting the one person in the world i care about. so i promised i wouldnt cut anymore and m keeping that promise.
the doctor put me on anti depressents and im going back at xmas to see what they are doing.
today i come home from work and find out george the best beatle ever, best guitarist ever, one of my fave people ever, has died. :(( its not fair. there is loads of stuff im interested in becuase of him really, like religion and things. i will be sad for ages and tonight im going to play all his songs before i go to sleep. talking of which, i better be going to bed about now seeing as its now 00.17AM!
on sunday last i cut myself and then i cut in the same cut again and again and i reckon either I cut too deep of on a vein or artery or something as it bled for 6 hours continuosly..... i put bandages on it but it soaked through... nothing seemed to stop it. i felt feint and i think i mustve lost a lot of blood my clothes are covered in it.... and i mean convered. i think i scared myself as i thought i was going to die. it wouldve been better going to the hospital i think.
well so after that i had a talk with tania and she is worried about me and sent me a letter and picture of her at the ball today. i realised that if i carry on cutting then i may as well just be cutting her becuase that is what i am doing. im hurting the one person in the world i care about. so i promised i wouldnt cut anymore and m keeping that promise.
the doctor put me on anti depressents and im going back at xmas to see what they are doing.
today i come home from work and find out george the best beatle ever, best guitarist ever, one of my fave people ever, has died. :(( its not fair. there is loads of stuff im interested in becuase of him really, like religion and things. i will be sad for ages and tonight im going to play all his songs before i go to sleep. talking of which, i better be going to bed about now seeing as its now 00.17AM!