please tell me what is wrong with me. really, i can take it. okay, no i cant. but seriously, why cant i sleep?!? recently i find it easier and easier to go with little to no sleep, and that my friend is not cool. night before last, i didnt sleep any, then i had to take my brothers friend to school, and once i returned home, i still was not sleepy, yet i found myself home alone, curled up, under the covers, in my nice warm bed, and i dont know what happened but the next thing i know, i wake up, at close to what i think was eight oclock at night... i dont even remember drifting off... so lastnight, i stayed home all night, and sterling called around 12:30, and then we called the jordan... and stayed on the phone until close to six this morning... i fall asleep, then wake up at nine o fucking clock this morning, after THREE hours of sleep... and im thinking, "what the fuck is this shit, im going back to sleep"... only the longer i layed there, the more awake i became. so... this sleep problem isnt exactly new in my life... i have this problem with actually falling asleep at night, period. i can be sooo terribly sleep all day long, but then once night hits, no more sleepies... its almost like night time is my peak or something, i find myself soo much more awake and alive during the night... i am kind of hoping that seeing as i only slept a total of three hours, maybe just maybe i will actually be able to get some sleep tonight. although, somehow, i seriously doubt it.
do you ever find yourself completely and totally involved in a certain television show? for me, that show is dawsons creek. mind you, i have seen every episode, atleast two, maybe five times. but yet, anytime i am awake between the hours of ten a.m. and noon, chances are i am somewhere glued to the tv... i watch these episodes over and over, and yet, each and everytime, i watch an episode, its as though i am watching a never before seen episode. and its weird. i dont really understand why i am so drawn to such a show... although as weird as this may sound, there are times that dawsons creek gives me hope. hope in life, hope in people. how fuct up is that?
i apologize to those of you, who i was talking to last night on AIM, when i was suddenly disconnected for what i thought was no apparent reason, until i look over, and see my grandfathers ignoramus dog, "scooby", hiking his leg directly over my cable modem. i could have KILLED the fucker. so, the drying out process took a little time... im talking, not only did i have to wipe and clean his urine off the surface, but i also had to get the blow dryer out, to dry the inside atleast some what. i was sooo worried that i was never going to work again. but i plugged it all back up, and BOOM, its working like a champ... a urine scented champ, but a champ none the less.
xkilltobreathex: its crazy how i meet all these girls that i have no intentions of hanging out with ever, and they are always like "oh my god, i really like you lacy, you arent like other girls"... and im thinking, well you are.
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OSPxWIGGLES: do you want me to keep going?
OSPxWIGGLES: I can, its that funny
(p.s. sterling isnt number 69 on my speed dial for nothing.)