May 22, 2006 18:31
List ten things you want to say to 10 people.
1. Don't say who the people are.
2. Feel free to comment, but I'm not confirming or answering anything here.
1.i'm intimidated by you sometimes. you think you're not, but you're such a strong person. and you have such a strong personality, and you're not afraid to show people exactly who you are. you've helped me find some of that kind of confidence within myself, and i love you for it. i have an extremely hard time trusting people, but you've earned my trust... and after everything, i never want to let you go again. to me, you're family, and i love you. you dont hear it enough- but you're fantastic. thank you for being a wonderful friend, and a wonderful person.
2. i really like spending time with you. i think that sometime things happen for a reason. i didnt expect things to happen the way that they have for you and me. but i'm glad-i feel like i can be close to you. and i'm really comfortable around you- you make people comfortable- you're so welcoming and funny. sometimes though, i wish i could tell you that you confuse me. you dont always confuse me, and when you do, i dont always want to let you know. but sometimes i wish it wasnt so hard for me to say. because i'd like to know what you think about things. and i want you to be open with me- not saying that you're not. i wish i knew how you were feeling more though, ya know? it'll be really fun to see what happens.
3. i dont quite know that there would be anyone else who would fully understand the friendship we have had over the years. or how things got offtrack or what we are now. i know we've both made mistakes- over the past year and a half i especially stopped making the effort that needed to be made. i'd really like it though if we could find a way to be close like we have in the past. we're different now but i love talking to you and i am excited to see what kind of fun we can have now. because you've always made me laugh.
4.anyone who has you in their life is extremely lucky. and it kills me that people take you for granted. i want to always watch out for you and be there to make sure everything goes like it should... and i know that drives you nuts sometimes. but you know, on the bright side, you always have someone who will be there for you. you are my best friend. i wish i didnt worry so much about you, but i cant help it- it comes with the territory. i love you.
5. it's amazing how we met really and how things kept happening. it's a small world. i'm really glad it brought you to me though. i've enjoyed all the talks we've had- since day one i've looked so forward to talking to you. you actually amaze me tooo- with your determination and you're drive to get things done. but you seriously confuse me sometimes. i never know exactly what you mean, or if there is more than what you're saying. i know things could have turned out differently with us. i'm glad we met- multiple times- and i have this feeling that you'll be a part of my life for a very long time.
6. i think it's really sad what's happened. not what's happened between us either, though i know you think that's a lie. i think the way you've changed is sad. because you were a good person. and i dont even know you now. i wouldnt want to know you now. it seems like everything i hear now is a disappointment- another thing you've said or done that is disrespectful or just plain stupid. i dont have issues with alot of people anymore. but you... it's just really sad. and i feel sorry for you.
7. i'm glad that things happened the way they have over the past year. i think it's great that we went off and found our own path and yet we still have this great friendship. and it's sure to grow so much stronger over the next year. i cant wait to find out more about you and to spend more time with you. because we have never spent enough time together. even though we've been friends for a long time! i love that we can sit and talk for hours about anything and everything. you seem to understand me even when i dont understand myself. and the way you support your friends is amazing. you are so loyal and sweet. you make everyone feel welcome all the time.
8. you are a very confident person. overconfident? quite possibly. i guess that's good in a way. but you need to learn that the things you say and the ways you act can hurt people. try to think before you say and do things. you say you want to change and you dont want to be the person you were in the past. and i believe you, i do. i really like you as a person and you crack me up. sometimes i wish i could say what i'm thinking the way that you can. but sometimes i just wish i could tell you when you get to me too.
9. i had alot of resentment towards you for a long time. i made assumptions, which were totally unfair for me to make. and you've proved me wrong about the things i assumed. you helepd me grow up in a way that i needed to- even though it wasnt your intention, and you've always been there for me- always acted like you really do care. which i appreciate. plus, you're alot of fun. always have been. it's what drew me to you since day 1. but i also know that your life isnt as great as you let on sometimes. and you can talk about that, you can admit it sometimes. it doesnt make you seem weak. i wish you could ask for help sometimes, instead of constantly offering advice.
10. we were friends, right? maybe it was a friendship dependent upon someone else, but i feel like we were friends. i dont trust you at all- you should know that. a promise is supposed to mean something, but it didnt for you- you made promises then broke them, knowing you'd get caught. you'd lie to my face, knowing i'd find out the truth. so maybe you didnt think it would come to this. i kind of wonder sometimes if you had other motives the whole time. i dont think you wanted to lose me as a friend though. but we probably can't be friends. i dont think you have the courage to stand up to him. which is unfortunate, because he hold you down and isnt a good friend. i'm sorry.