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[now_i_can_shine]

it seems as though my parents are trying to take away every last thing i need in life.. the things i need. today for no reason my dad just became two faced and started yelling at me for asking him to take me mikes... he told me i cant go over there that i just go there for entertainment... what the fuck does he think a guitar is used for.. entertainment. he better change his fucking mind or hes gonna learn what its like to have to deal with a fucking depressed daughter at home. im not gonna be depressed at school or away from the house, just at home im so sick of dealing with my parents me and katie.. our families have disowned us . i cant wait until im 18 my life will be so much better. everything will. theres just been too much at once.. school starts tomorrow, the summers over then this. i get so sick of being in a shitty mood all of the time. i get a couple days when im happy .. im either with my friends or mike. im never happy here. oh well.. i dont feel like whining like a baby anymore so im going to stop.

this song really describes how i feel ... heh.

"Numb"

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be