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[novocainkarma]

i'm never on the computer anymore. i need to find myself and experience all that i want and i'm not wasting anymore time on a fucking machine. arnold's drycleaners blows and i'm gonna try to get a job at mellow mushroom with megan. i'm in LOVE with wes and i think he's the only person that makes me feel complete anymore. and god, he makes me laugh so much. if you see me anywhere, i'm with him. we understand each other so well that it's almost unbelievable. i'm stuck in between with everything else. school, friends, and family. i feel like a new person and i think that's why i'm having trouble sorting things out. i'm not having too much trouble though.. life is never as bad as people make it seem. there's so much good in it and if i can notice it then everyone else can too. i just know it. merry christmas, because i probably won't be on any time before then. i guess that's it... being happy is worth the fight.

please don't act like i'm still so consumed in your life when really, i'm not. i'm so much better off without all that baggage (and you) and not to mention, way happier. and i promise you would be to if you could just let go and stop fucking pretending all the time. i don't care if you talk about me anymore. i'm just laid back about this whole situation to the point where i just don't give a fuck! infact it's not even a 'situation' anymore, atleast not for me. and i promise this is the last time you'll be hearing about it from me because none of it matters now. we all know who's honest and you don't have a very good record of being truthful : )