why can't i sleep anymore?
i've narrowed it down to a couple reasons why i am not sleeping at night anymore:
reason #1
i think too much. my brain is an endless tunnel of complex thoughts that just won't shut up when it's time to get some beauty rest. i don't understand. these series of thoughts seem to be in competition with each other. i never know which one to focus on--assignments, getting good grades, making the right choices, speaking with my father again, events with paul, what to say in certain situations, how things will turn out, worrying about what's to come, people i haven't spoken to in ages, money etc. it's thoughts such as this that are keeping me up at night more so than pumping caffeine directly into my veins would.
reason #2
pain and/or discomfort. my wisdom teeth are still irking me. it's not as bad as it was about a week ago thank god but it still bothers me. i feel like i should go out and buy a teething ring at times. now i know why babies wail and scream so much when they're teething. geez. this pain then leads to me worrying about what's going to happen when i have to get my wisdom teeth out (although i've heard it's quite the crazy experience) which then leads to reason #1. the discomfort i speak of comes from a different area which is of major concern. i'm terrified of what might be happening and what could be wrong
hmmm... from that i think i have narrowed it down to one reason... yes. reason #1 seems to be the biggest issue. at this point i think the only thing that could help would be to talk to someone. someone i can lay out my thoughts cleanly and not feel guilty about it. someone i know i can trust not to tell another person about what i've said. someone who is in a neutral space of mind who won't react entirely positively or negatively on what i say... i had this someone once. i found i slept much better. perhaps this is the answer...
so.. ummm... uh... crazy weather we've been having lately eh?
reason #1
i think too much. my brain is an endless tunnel of complex thoughts that just won't shut up when it's time to get some beauty rest. i don't understand. these series of thoughts seem to be in competition with each other. i never know which one to focus on--assignments, getting good grades, making the right choices, speaking with my father again, events with paul, what to say in certain situations, how things will turn out, worrying about what's to come, people i haven't spoken to in ages, money etc. it's thoughts such as this that are keeping me up at night more so than pumping caffeine directly into my veins would.
reason #2
pain and/or discomfort. my wisdom teeth are still irking me. it's not as bad as it was about a week ago thank god but it still bothers me. i feel like i should go out and buy a teething ring at times. now i know why babies wail and scream so much when they're teething. geez. this pain then leads to me worrying about what's going to happen when i have to get my wisdom teeth out (although i've heard it's quite the crazy experience) which then leads to reason #1. the discomfort i speak of comes from a different area which is of major concern. i'm terrified of what might be happening and what could be wrong
hmmm... from that i think i have narrowed it down to one reason... yes. reason #1 seems to be the biggest issue. at this point i think the only thing that could help would be to talk to someone. someone i can lay out my thoughts cleanly and not feel guilty about it. someone i know i can trust not to tell another person about what i've said. someone who is in a neutral space of mind who won't react entirely positively or negatively on what i say... i had this someone once. i found i slept much better. perhaps this is the answer...
so.. ummm... uh... crazy weather we've been having lately eh?