mess

[novemburmyst]

I'm a complete mess. I don't know what to do anymore. I try and i don't seem to get any farther, ever. I don't understand maybe someday i'll figure out whatever it is but for now i don't know how to go about things. I hate having the whole teenager life thing. The drama, the backstabbing, the relationships everything. Relationships is something i want i guess like any other guy but its not the biggest deal to me, but then i ask myself silly questions like well why isn't it? It should be a priority at my age but i don't know it hurts too much i guess. I just wish that i'll be loved, maybe i am and i don't realize it. I am a pretty conceded son of a bitch i'll admit and let things get to my head but i don't think i am with this.

I just need to stop, stop everything and get the things that mean most to me back in my life. No bull shit this time.