Update on Dad
Sorry I've not gotten the replies sent out on everything, but I'm doing what I do best and that means just kinda freezing up on all social interaction. They did a biopsy on a spot they found on Dad's lung yesterday. Today they told us it was confirmed as cancer. I don't know how bad the situation is, only that it is confirmed as cancer. He's supposed to have an appointment on Tuesday to go over treatment plans.
My dad actually seems to be feeling fine and is in good humor. Since they've increased his blood thinner, the knot under his arm and the swelling of his arm has gone down and it’s no longer hurting him. I guess they're hoping the blood thinner will dissolve the clot before any more pieces can break off. *crosses fingers* Mostly, they seem to be focused on the cancer more than the blood clot.
I honestly don't know how I'm feeling right now because it seems like this entire week has just been one, long waiting game. I've spent a lot of time at the hospital so I've been missing being home with my own family (there's not enough room for all of us to catch a ride up and our car isn't trustworthy enough to make the drive). I think I'm starting to get depressed due to the stressfulness of all of it. The situation is stressful enough, but dealing with everyone else's stress and idiosyncrasies has also been extremely stressful since I'm super sensitive to that kind of thing. It's like I can almost feel my blood pressure rising due to the continuing stress.
A part of me is kinda angry too. It's selfish, I know, but I'm just so sick of every time I feel like I'm about to get a reprieve and like maybe I'm physically feeling better myself, about to get life back on track, something comes along and crushes those happy feelings and sends me into a new setback.
Anyway, I’d like to thank all of you for your thoughts, kind words and prayers. I appreciate it so, so much. My dad is mostly being a trooper, but my mom is stressing herself and all of us out. She’s the uptight type anyway and you can practically feel the anxiety rolling off of her right now.
She’s been in some denial about how bad this could be, but she’s also worrying about all the different things a person in her place would worry about-how to deal with Dad if he doesn’t want treatment, how to deal with Dad if he has treatment but it makes him really sick, how to deal with making him behave himself and, of course, she worries about how much all this will end up costing. So they both need healing and supportive prayers.
*hugs* to you all and thank you so much again.
My dad actually seems to be feeling fine and is in good humor. Since they've increased his blood thinner, the knot under his arm and the swelling of his arm has gone down and it’s no longer hurting him. I guess they're hoping the blood thinner will dissolve the clot before any more pieces can break off. *crosses fingers* Mostly, they seem to be focused on the cancer more than the blood clot.
I honestly don't know how I'm feeling right now because it seems like this entire week has just been one, long waiting game. I've spent a lot of time at the hospital so I've been missing being home with my own family (there's not enough room for all of us to catch a ride up and our car isn't trustworthy enough to make the drive). I think I'm starting to get depressed due to the stressfulness of all of it. The situation is stressful enough, but dealing with everyone else's stress and idiosyncrasies has also been extremely stressful since I'm super sensitive to that kind of thing. It's like I can almost feel my blood pressure rising due to the continuing stress.
A part of me is kinda angry too. It's selfish, I know, but I'm just so sick of every time I feel like I'm about to get a reprieve and like maybe I'm physically feeling better myself, about to get life back on track, something comes along and crushes those happy feelings and sends me into a new setback.
Anyway, I’d like to thank all of you for your thoughts, kind words and prayers. I appreciate it so, so much. My dad is mostly being a trooper, but my mom is stressing herself and all of us out. She’s the uptight type anyway and you can practically feel the anxiety rolling off of her right now.
She’s been in some denial about how bad this could be, but she’s also worrying about all the different things a person in her place would worry about-how to deal with Dad if he doesn’t want treatment, how to deal with Dad if he has treatment but it makes him really sick, how to deal with making him behave himself and, of course, she worries about how much all this will end up costing. So they both need healing and supportive prayers.
*hugs* to you all and thank you so much again.