ordinary girl
When it comes, will it come without warning,
Just as I'm picking my nose?
Will it knock on my door in the morning,
Or tread in the bus on my toes?
Will it come like a change in the weather?
Will its greeting be courteous or rough?
Will it alter my life altogether?
O tell me the truth about love.
- WH Auden
like i've said to dear innertemple (i always sound "true" to myself when i talk to you, and it's rare for me: i usually hate what i write, cos' it never describes me well)...
i could say that things are under control for the time being....
and now...i'm doomed 'cos i know that, for saying this, something will happen.
but it's so hard to costraint my inner life. must read books, find some paintings still "new" to me, and watch some films to find myself again. need to learn new things and find new ideas. trying to let go what i'm focused on.
a million of things to do, like everybody else. feel myself like a regular human being...
like june used to say, just tryin' to matter...
have a nice week.
- I knew a man once who said, "Death smiles at us all. All a man can do is smile back."
- I wonder, did your friend smile at his own death?
- You must know. He was your father.
Just as I'm picking my nose?
Will it knock on my door in the morning,
Or tread in the bus on my toes?
Will it come like a change in the weather?
Will its greeting be courteous or rough?
Will it alter my life altogether?
O tell me the truth about love.
- WH Auden
like i've said to dear innertemple (i always sound "true" to myself when i talk to you, and it's rare for me: i usually hate what i write, cos' it never describes me well)...
i could say that things are under control for the time being....
and now...i'm doomed 'cos i know that, for saying this, something will happen.
but it's so hard to costraint my inner life. must read books, find some paintings still "new" to me, and watch some films to find myself again. need to learn new things and find new ideas. trying to let go what i'm focused on.
a million of things to do, like everybody else. feel myself like a regular human being...
like june used to say, just tryin' to matter...
have a nice week.
- I knew a man once who said, "Death smiles at us all. All a man can do is smile back."
- I wonder, did your friend smile at his own death?
- You must know. He was your father.