packin' up....
well...this is my last full night here. tomorrow last day and then on friday morning i'll leave. you could say that this is what i dreamt of and hoped for, since last december...and now for once in a lifetime it happens the exact thing i wanted. and i have it in my hands.
and i'm scared to death. you bet i am....i'm scared of anything in this world and especially of new things to come. Milly today told me that i'm brave...'cos she couldn't do it or she'd love to but in the end she wouldn't do it.
i'm a chicken shit. that's the truth. and bravery is for serious things that matter. what i'm gonna do requires no bravery nor anything. and a million people do it every day. it's the most common thing you can do if you wanna study and you have money, which i don't. the only thing i know is that i know what i actually like.. without lying to myself. what it makes the difference and that makes me happy. so far. we'll see if i made the right choice...and if i don't i'll learn from my mistake...like Bebe used to say in one song "pero mi casa se vuelve a construir / aunque los tormados lo destrocen todo / sé sobrevivir y si no aprendo /..."
there's nothing left to say.
one year...could be so damn long for many things or so quick. we'll see...
i'll talk about it ;) ....
au revoir Shoshanna....see ya in another peninsula...
and like i've said when i left for merida... I mean, now I realize that... you gotta take chances. Because you never know, you know what I mean? I mean, what the hell! I'm not gonna worry about if people accept me or not. I'm gonna make Hollywood wherever I am at.
from To Wong Foo Thanks for Everything, Julie Newmar (1995)
bye bye baby...goodbye...
and i'm scared to death. you bet i am....i'm scared of anything in this world and especially of new things to come. Milly today told me that i'm brave...'cos she couldn't do it or she'd love to but in the end she wouldn't do it.
i'm a chicken shit. that's the truth. and bravery is for serious things that matter. what i'm gonna do requires no bravery nor anything. and a million people do it every day. it's the most common thing you can do if you wanna study and you have money, which i don't. the only thing i know is that i know what i actually like.. without lying to myself. what it makes the difference and that makes me happy. so far. we'll see if i made the right choice...and if i don't i'll learn from my mistake...like Bebe used to say in one song "pero mi casa se vuelve a construir / aunque los tormados lo destrocen todo / sé sobrevivir y si no aprendo /..."
there's nothing left to say.
one year...could be so damn long for many things or so quick. we'll see...
i'll talk about it ;) ....
au revoir Shoshanna....see ya in another peninsula...
and like i've said when i left for merida... I mean, now I realize that... you gotta take chances. Because you never know, you know what I mean? I mean, what the hell! I'm not gonna worry about if people accept me or not. I'm gonna make Hollywood wherever I am at.
from To Wong Foo Thanks for Everything, Julie Newmar (1995)
bye bye baby...goodbye...