Thoughts are the shadows of our feelings - always darker, emptier, simpler. F.Nietzsche
second day of work down. what can i say 'bout it? that i'd love to listen to an Arturo Bandini, or to a young Holden who would tell me that everything's gonna be fine, that i'll get used to everything soon, that everything will be so familiar quite unexpectedly..
i really don't know why i think this way, but the point is that when i record my thoughts the moment i have them during my day, they sound like a book by that pair of my good friends....or at least i do think about them and what they would feel if they were in me...
such a c-crazy girl.
after all i can say that yesterday has been my best first-day-of-work of the jobs i've done in life so far (including excavating!). it wasn't funny or easy or whatever....but it was far more relaxed, and they were all so sympathetic to me^^....
the point is that sometimes i'm so totally focused on what i do, that i probably look much more "worried" and shy and frightened than i actually am...i'm just scared of making too many mistakes while my boss is checking me...i tend to do a mess that way...i'm so much better when she's not there...i'd just like not to disappoint her. just that. i've got so much things to learn and they seem way too many, way to difficult to remember.
i'm an "Amélie-on probation" at some-like Les Deux Moulins'...waiting for her Nino while she's writing the menu on the glass...^^ in some odd way!
we'll see.
today i made a coffe for my teacher. i was happy. ^^
congrats to capracotta, Rick and Mich for their master's degree...wished i were there, my friends!!! sending you much love and hugs!...and champagne!
now dinner, shower and off to bed. to beeed!
(alarm clock: 4.10 a.m.; train: 5.12 a.m.; starting: 7.00 a.m.; finish: 3.00 p.m....oh yeahhh.)
Our destiny exercises its influence over us even when, as yet, we have not learned its nature: it is our future that lays down the law of our today.
who knows, Nieztsche: who knows...
i really don't know why i think this way, but the point is that when i record my thoughts the moment i have them during my day, they sound like a book by that pair of my good friends....or at least i do think about them and what they would feel if they were in me...
such a c-crazy girl.
after all i can say that yesterday has been my best first-day-of-work of the jobs i've done in life so far (including excavating!). it wasn't funny or easy or whatever....but it was far more relaxed, and they were all so sympathetic to me^^....
the point is that sometimes i'm so totally focused on what i do, that i probably look much more "worried" and shy and frightened than i actually am...i'm just scared of making too many mistakes while my boss is checking me...i tend to do a mess that way...i'm so much better when she's not there...i'd just like not to disappoint her. just that. i've got so much things to learn and they seem way too many, way to difficult to remember.
i'm an "Amélie-on probation" at some-like Les Deux Moulins'...waiting for her Nino while she's writing the menu on the glass...^^ in some odd way!
we'll see.
today i made a coffe for my teacher. i was happy. ^^
congrats to capracotta, Rick and Mich for their master's degree...wished i were there, my friends!!! sending you much love and hugs!...and champagne!
now dinner, shower and off to bed. to beeed!
(alarm clock: 4.10 a.m.; train: 5.12 a.m.; starting: 7.00 a.m.; finish: 3.00 p.m....oh yeahhh.)
Our destiny exercises its influence over us even when, as yet, we have not learned its nature: it is our future that lays down the law of our today.
who knows, Nieztsche: who knows...