Looking forward to Halloweenよ
Still totally going as a sexy witch for Halloween. Sure it`s easy, but I have so many cocktail dresses, I should really use one of them. I am torn between a black strapless mini with a triangular patch of black sequins or a red and mostly black dress with straps. I think the all black one is a smidge shorter, but the black and red one is a little more see-through so you can totally see the space in between my thighs and whatnot. If I do the red, I can do red, silver, grey, and black eye makeup. If I go all black, the makeup will just be black, grey, and silver. Buy I`m totally going to wear false lashes.
Hey, I guess T and I are on good terms again. He realizes that I DGAF about his flirting, I just ignore it. It`s harmless and it`s nothing like E. E called to see what I was up to and asked me to meet up with him because he was at Olive`s. Mura and T were there. I sat in between E and T and Mura started to tell me how much E had been talking about me. I tried to tell Mura that that`s normal for E and I`m not interested in E, but Mura thinks E likes me. Well, he`s right, E does like me, but E says that he likes me too much as a friend to let me rejecting him make him stop socializing with me. He continues to flirt and drop compliments and I roll my eyes and ignore it or tease him about it for the most part; it`s just friendly banter. M, W, and T were kind of surprises because they haven`t really seen E openly say so much about me and liking me and I was telling them that was normal for him.
Oh and I think W may like me. It may not just be me that he likes, but he likes me more than his current girlfriend, which seems to be a problem. M doesn`t really want to admit that`s the problem, which is why he tried to say W likes the hostess girl. He might actually like hostess (I`m renaming her Chi because it`s cuter), but Chi likes M more with W in second if she can`t hook up with M. And I think W just likes me because he`s spent some time with me recently while meeting up with his girlfriend can be tough and she`s kind of a fragile, worrier and all that jazz while I`m kind of like an opposite personality-wise. So I think W has just been having fun hanging out with no pressure and whatnot.
T tried to get me to agree that being able to make cocktails was an ideal trait when looking for a significant other, and I was like, "LOL no, not really" because I was drunk. T thought I was rejecting both M and W, but I wasn`t. But I`m definitely not interested in being more than friends with W and W kind of already knows that. The talk also drifted into what I wanted in a boyfriend, but I said I just wanted a sexual relationship in the meantime and 「ケツは愛じゃない」 (ass isn`t love... ie sex isn`t the same as love). T laughed and agreed with the statement. I said I wanted sex and M was asked if he was okay and I was all like, "No, Mは一晩限りだけ欲しいんだから" and he claimed that wasn`t the case. Which led me to complain about how the Japanese guy I had hooked up with not too long back ended up being a one-night stand by accident because the guy is weird and fickle--he likes being a player and chases, but he doesn`t like that I don`t mind that he is a player, doesn`t like being chased after, and doesn`t want me going out and having fun without him. Like he wants to be important to me and he`s just a セフレ if anything and it`s a bust to his pride.
The nail chic (Su) asked what kind of guy I liked and I can never answer that, just that there were certain things I didn`t like. She asked if I liked anyone and I said I did used to like a guy (GIL) where I used to live before moving to Kyushu. I explained that even though he had characteristics I usually don`t like, overall there were enough things I liked about him to like him. Su wanted to know about things I didn`t like and I brought up how he had shoulder length hair that was permed, tattoos, and smoked but he was still really nice to me. But the biggest problem about GIL was that he never really initiated physical contact, even when we were out drinking with a group, he was overly concerned with invading my personal space and he didn`t really like sex in general, but I like sex. During this time, M was anywhere but near the bar...I don`t think he wanted to hear about that. GIL was the manager of the shot bar and M is a manager, but they`re not really alike. The only similarity is that GIL had some lady fans, but the bar he worked in was kind of rough and had less lady customers.
I also added that even though nothing happened and I finally realized that it wasn`t going to work out with GIL, I gave up. No biggie. It was fun liking him and it was a good experience. If our personalities and relationship needs don`t match enough, then it is what it is. I kind of wanted to rub in M`s face that I totally did what M said that Steve Jobs said people should do.
T, M, W and people want me to come to Olive`s all dolled up for the heck of it. Yeah, I wasn`t keen on the idea because I don`t want to go out of my way to be 目立つ but then I do want to use my dresses. Maybe I should just for the sake of wearing them??? I always dress casually, which is super casual for women according to J standards. I don`t know.
Hey, I guess T and I are on good terms again. He realizes that I DGAF about his flirting, I just ignore it. It`s harmless and it`s nothing like E. E called to see what I was up to and asked me to meet up with him because he was at Olive`s. Mura and T were there. I sat in between E and T and Mura started to tell me how much E had been talking about me. I tried to tell Mura that that`s normal for E and I`m not interested in E, but Mura thinks E likes me. Well, he`s right, E does like me, but E says that he likes me too much as a friend to let me rejecting him make him stop socializing with me. He continues to flirt and drop compliments and I roll my eyes and ignore it or tease him about it for the most part; it`s just friendly banter. M, W, and T were kind of surprises because they haven`t really seen E openly say so much about me and liking me and I was telling them that was normal for him.
Oh and I think W may like me. It may not just be me that he likes, but he likes me more than his current girlfriend, which seems to be a problem. M doesn`t really want to admit that`s the problem, which is why he tried to say W likes the hostess girl. He might actually like hostess (I`m renaming her Chi because it`s cuter), but Chi likes M more with W in second if she can`t hook up with M. And I think W just likes me because he`s spent some time with me recently while meeting up with his girlfriend can be tough and she`s kind of a fragile, worrier and all that jazz while I`m kind of like an opposite personality-wise. So I think W has just been having fun hanging out with no pressure and whatnot.
T tried to get me to agree that being able to make cocktails was an ideal trait when looking for a significant other, and I was like, "LOL no, not really" because I was drunk. T thought I was rejecting both M and W, but I wasn`t. But I`m definitely not interested in being more than friends with W and W kind of already knows that. The talk also drifted into what I wanted in a boyfriend, but I said I just wanted a sexual relationship in the meantime and 「ケツは愛じゃない」 (ass isn`t love... ie sex isn`t the same as love). T laughed and agreed with the statement. I said I wanted sex and M was asked if he was okay and I was all like, "No, Mは一晩限りだけ欲しいんだから" and he claimed that wasn`t the case. Which led me to complain about how the Japanese guy I had hooked up with not too long back ended up being a one-night stand by accident because the guy is weird and fickle--he likes being a player and chases, but he doesn`t like that I don`t mind that he is a player, doesn`t like being chased after, and doesn`t want me going out and having fun without him. Like he wants to be important to me and he`s just a セフレ if anything and it`s a bust to his pride.
The nail chic (Su) asked what kind of guy I liked and I can never answer that, just that there were certain things I didn`t like. She asked if I liked anyone and I said I did used to like a guy (GIL) where I used to live before moving to Kyushu. I explained that even though he had characteristics I usually don`t like, overall there were enough things I liked about him to like him. Su wanted to know about things I didn`t like and I brought up how he had shoulder length hair that was permed, tattoos, and smoked but he was still really nice to me. But the biggest problem about GIL was that he never really initiated physical contact, even when we were out drinking with a group, he was overly concerned with invading my personal space and he didn`t really like sex in general, but I like sex. During this time, M was anywhere but near the bar...I don`t think he wanted to hear about that. GIL was the manager of the shot bar and M is a manager, but they`re not really alike. The only similarity is that GIL had some lady fans, but the bar he worked in was kind of rough and had less lady customers.
I also added that even though nothing happened and I finally realized that it wasn`t going to work out with GIL, I gave up. No biggie. It was fun liking him and it was a good experience. If our personalities and relationship needs don`t match enough, then it is what it is. I kind of wanted to rub in M`s face that I totally did what M said that Steve Jobs said people should do.
T, M, W and people want me to come to Olive`s all dolled up for the heck of it. Yeah, I wasn`t keen on the idea because I don`t want to go out of my way to be 目立つ but then I do want to use my dresses. Maybe I should just for the sake of wearing them??? I always dress casually, which is super casual for women according to J standards. I don`t know.