(no subject)
so i wrote yesterday for the first time in a long time
slipping away
slipping in to you
looking foreword
only seeing back
scared little grrl
merging
scared little boi
wondering alone
surrounded by hundreds
they don't know
why i look back
when i'm looking foreword
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elective
i think not
spending 4 hrs to get dressed
afraid of minors
what i did my be cosmetic
but not elective
4 shirts a day
a binder
a sweat shirt
it all never came off
no one ever touched skin there
not even me
showers in the dark
afraid of my body
cosmetic i think not
mutilation not compared to what it was like before
two thin lines to be proud of
not hundreds to hide away
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your look cuts threw me like a knife cutting tofu
you know what i go threw
no words are needed
i tenace as you touch them
tentative as adjust
its been so long
its not been long enough
to have forgotten
the pain they caused just from being there
on me
slipping away
slipping in to you
looking foreword
only seeing back
scared little grrl
merging
scared little boi
wondering alone
surrounded by hundreds
they don't know
why i look back
when i'm looking foreword
----------------
elective
i think not
spending 4 hrs to get dressed
afraid of minors
what i did my be cosmetic
but not elective
4 shirts a day
a binder
a sweat shirt
it all never came off
no one ever touched skin there
not even me
showers in the dark
afraid of my body
cosmetic i think not
mutilation not compared to what it was like before
two thin lines to be proud of
not hundreds to hide away
---------------------
your look cuts threw me like a knife cutting tofu
you know what i go threw
no words are needed
i tenace as you touch them
tentative as adjust
its been so long
its not been long enough
to have forgotten
the pain they caused just from being there
on me