Today is better, immmensely
I think the sun shining helps me. It's been proven that sunshine makes an improvement in mood and while I am a fan of the cooler weather and I think that rain is beautiful in its own respect, I definitely concur with the idea that sunshine makes for a happier Rachie.
My mood yesterday was probably affected by the fact that I needed to get to class and it was raining when I woke up, spiraling me into a depression like I've never been in. I can't honestly believe that I wanted to call it quits, especially after walking through a sunny and bustling campus today. It renewed my faith in my place here.
I do this to myself (and to others, inadvertently) all the time and I think it's about time I checked into getting some sort of assistance in dealing with my mood swings. They're not frequent but they are sudden and sometimes long in duration. I spend weeks feeling like I hate everything around me and finding only very small comfort in the things that should matter the most, like my friends, my mom and my family, and my boyfriend. They all proved to me yesterday how much they really love me and how much my happiness means to them. Especially my mother. I don't think I appreciated until yesterday her reasoning power and how much my happiness really figures into hers. She does care about me and while, on some level, I knew that, I think I needed the proof to ease my worries. I won't ramble on about this much longer because, for the most part, I am over it. It amazes me how quickly I move on. I am so glad that I can say that this is all yseterday's news.
So, as a last thought on the subject, suggestions for a good counselor or counseling resources in the East Lansing area would be greatly appreciated and utilized. This request mainly goes out to the good and all-knowing MPH99, since he's the resident psychological genius in my inner circle of friends. Or, you know, just smack me upside my head.
My mood yesterday was probably affected by the fact that I needed to get to class and it was raining when I woke up, spiraling me into a depression like I've never been in. I can't honestly believe that I wanted to call it quits, especially after walking through a sunny and bustling campus today. It renewed my faith in my place here.
I do this to myself (and to others, inadvertently) all the time and I think it's about time I checked into getting some sort of assistance in dealing with my mood swings. They're not frequent but they are sudden and sometimes long in duration. I spend weeks feeling like I hate everything around me and finding only very small comfort in the things that should matter the most, like my friends, my mom and my family, and my boyfriend. They all proved to me yesterday how much they really love me and how much my happiness means to them. Especially my mother. I don't think I appreciated until yesterday her reasoning power and how much my happiness really figures into hers. She does care about me and while, on some level, I knew that, I think I needed the proof to ease my worries. I won't ramble on about this much longer because, for the most part, I am over it. It amazes me how quickly I move on. I am so glad that I can say that this is all yseterday's news.
So, as a last thought on the subject, suggestions for a good counselor or counseling resources in the East Lansing area would be greatly appreciated and utilized. This request mainly goes out to the good and all-knowing MPH99, since he's the resident psychological genius in my inner circle of friends. Or, you know, just smack me upside my head.