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Today would have been Nathan's 21st Birthday and although I think of him a lot today is just awful. He should be here. We should be out to celebrate on a monday going to the fez and things just like how he'd be out in the holidays after coming back from Uni and whatever.
I can't believe it is over a year and a half since he died anyway. I haven't accepted it really that I won't see him again, I just assume I'll see him soon it doesn't click in my head because I still haven't been to visit his grave or anything. I don't want to I guess. But I'm going to go before America and I'll go and visit all of my relatives at the crematorium and give them a flower each or something, just so they know.
I'd go visit Ollie's grave as well but it isn't at our crematorium so I don't know how to get to his. But when I think of Nathan I think of Ollie too and I won't forget him either but with Nathan like, I loved that boy for 2 years of my life. He was my biggest crush ever and I used to go to his house and hang out with him and everytime I saw him I melted again, something about him.
I miss him anyway but who wouldn't miss one of their friends when they're gone. Perhaps it was his time, and there are other plans for him. I hope he knows that loads of people are thinking of him anyway, because I know so many people are.
I can't believe it is over a year and a half since he died anyway. I haven't accepted it really that I won't see him again, I just assume I'll see him soon it doesn't click in my head because I still haven't been to visit his grave or anything. I don't want to I guess. But I'm going to go before America and I'll go and visit all of my relatives at the crematorium and give them a flower each or something, just so they know.
I'd go visit Ollie's grave as well but it isn't at our crematorium so I don't know how to get to his. But when I think of Nathan I think of Ollie too and I won't forget him either but with Nathan like, I loved that boy for 2 years of my life. He was my biggest crush ever and I used to go to his house and hang out with him and everytime I saw him I melted again, something about him.
I miss him anyway but who wouldn't miss one of their friends when they're gone. Perhaps it was his time, and there are other plans for him. I hope he knows that loads of people are thinking of him anyway, because I know so many people are.