my life in a nutshell
I had to lose my extra pic space here and my paid account. Alas, I don't have the money for it. However, the reason I don't have the money is pretty amazing. I'm not renewing my contract at my job. As of the end of this month, I will no longer be employed there. Eight and a half years after starting, I'm packing up my classroom and turning in my keys.
I'm terrified, scared out of my mind. I'm afraid I won't find a new teaching job, afraid that I won't find any job, afraid of leaving the place I've been since I completed my M.Ed long ago. I'm scared that I'm making the wrong decision, even when I know WITH ALL MY HEART that it is the right one.
I'm scared that if I get a part time job this summer, because my wife has blessedly agreed to let me do that and she'll foot extra of the bills, that given the opportunity to write and try this, I won't succeed.
Ultimately, I'm afraid that I won't succeed, and I'm ever more afraid to try. If I don't try, then all I did was not try. If I try and don't succeed, what does that mean?
UGH
this post brought to you by the letters E, M and O, and by the concept: anxiety.
I'm terrified, scared out of my mind. I'm afraid I won't find a new teaching job, afraid that I won't find any job, afraid of leaving the place I've been since I completed my M.Ed long ago. I'm scared that I'm making the wrong decision, even when I know WITH ALL MY HEART that it is the right one.
I'm scared that if I get a part time job this summer, because my wife has blessedly agreed to let me do that and she'll foot extra of the bills, that given the opportunity to write and try this, I won't succeed.
Ultimately, I'm afraid that I won't succeed, and I'm ever more afraid to try. If I don't try, then all I did was not try. If I try and don't succeed, what does that mean?
UGH
this post brought to you by the letters E, M and O, and by the concept: anxiety.