Standing on broken glass....
Entry #00856
For the first time, I really, truly have learned to rely on completely on myself. There have been points in my life before when I thought I felt this way, but there will still crutches of comfort to fall back on if need be. I was telling a new friend some stories about the past couple years....everything that has happened...and when I look back on everything as a series of events, it all feels like it has been leading up to the now.
I have my very first apartment all to myself. And I am making enough money at work to pay for the place, and a modest amount of everything I want to fill it. Fortunately, I have made some of the best friends I have ever had and met some of my favorite people since moving here. And it seems like I am meeting new amazing people nearly every week. A lot of my situational social anxieties are almost completely under control- I can go out and feel confident about having a good time anytime I please!
The music is feeling amazing as well. The rockstar dreams are alive and well, burning bright. I feel like I am writing some of the best songs I've ever been a part of.
All in all, I am feeling great. And everyday I am better learning to fill all of my voids on my own.
For the first time, I really, truly have learned to rely on completely on myself. There have been points in my life before when I thought I felt this way, but there will still crutches of comfort to fall back on if need be. I was telling a new friend some stories about the past couple years....everything that has happened...and when I look back on everything as a series of events, it all feels like it has been leading up to the now.
I have my very first apartment all to myself. And I am making enough money at work to pay for the place, and a modest amount of everything I want to fill it. Fortunately, I have made some of the best friends I have ever had and met some of my favorite people since moving here. And it seems like I am meeting new amazing people nearly every week. A lot of my situational social anxieties are almost completely under control- I can go out and feel confident about having a good time anytime I please!
The music is feeling amazing as well. The rockstar dreams are alive and well, burning bright. I feel like I am writing some of the best songs I've ever been a part of.
All in all, I am feeling great. And everyday I am better learning to fill all of my voids on my own.