Mirror, mirror on the wall. Mak em' beg, make em' crawl..
There is something you should know. I envy people who are confident and who feel beautiful, and who could care less what everyone else thought about them. I wish I was like that. I know, you're probably wondering how random of me..but it's been bugging me lately.
So I took a good look in the mirror last night and came to the realization that I'm unhappy. With people, no, but with how I present myself to others. I put no effort into getting ready for school, no makeup, no deep thought as to whether or not my clothes match. And yet, I still wonder why *ahem* guys don't find me attractive. I used to use the excuse, well I'm short. BUT there are plenty of short girls that everyone would classify as pretty. I don't even know what I'm really saying anymore, but oh well. All 'm really saying is...I feel ugly.
I went to confession last night and I'm really glad that I did. But already I've been mean to my mom, gave Joanna the finger twice, said the word penis, and said the word shit. But really, I am trying. But anyway, that's what we did at youth group. Father Hill talked and then we went to Confession. I know this may sound weird, but I always wonder whether or not the people around me are really thinking about how they can be a better person or what they've done to hurt people. Isn't that weird? I know it is... But yeah, I got nominated to be a youth leader yet again. And no one ever picks me to be one. I think that if they paired me up with Sam and Betsy, we could really think up some good discussions to have. The boys are great, I love our youth leaders..BUT..we need to talk about something erm, meaningful? Something that would get everyone to participate....
I went to the dance workshop for the Pops concert thing and it pretty fun. Anwar is so friggin' talented. Anyway, my dance partners were Bryce, Shaun, and Elliott. I love them all. :D Chamber Choir gets to go to Orlando next week. I'm so jealous! But I could never dislike the Chamber Choir people, for I love them all. Well, all the ones I know of course. You know what I'm worried about? My grades. I will pee my pants if I get a 3.0 this quarter, because I really slacked off. I need to step it up. I want to get at least a 3.8 4th quarter. Het, it could happen. Right?
I want pizza SO BAD. My mom bought me a cookie and it made me happy. And today is Amber's birthday so we should all be happy! And did I fail to mention our extremely beauitful weather that I have been waiting for? Well, we finally had some sunny weather, and now I cannot WAIT to get out my summer clothes. *sigh* I love when the school year is halfway over. It makes me smile.
So I took a good look in the mirror last night and came to the realization that I'm unhappy. With people, no, but with how I present myself to others. I put no effort into getting ready for school, no makeup, no deep thought as to whether or not my clothes match. And yet, I still wonder why *ahem* guys don't find me attractive. I used to use the excuse, well I'm short. BUT there are plenty of short girls that everyone would classify as pretty. I don't even know what I'm really saying anymore, but oh well. All 'm really saying is...I feel ugly.
I went to confession last night and I'm really glad that I did. But already I've been mean to my mom, gave Joanna the finger twice, said the word penis, and said the word shit. But really, I am trying. But anyway, that's what we did at youth group. Father Hill talked and then we went to Confession. I know this may sound weird, but I always wonder whether or not the people around me are really thinking about how they can be a better person or what they've done to hurt people. Isn't that weird? I know it is... But yeah, I got nominated to be a youth leader yet again. And no one ever picks me to be one. I think that if they paired me up with Sam and Betsy, we could really think up some good discussions to have. The boys are great, I love our youth leaders..BUT..we need to talk about something erm, meaningful? Something that would get everyone to participate....
I went to the dance workshop for the Pops concert thing and it pretty fun. Anwar is so friggin' talented. Anyway, my dance partners were Bryce, Shaun, and Elliott. I love them all. :D Chamber Choir gets to go to Orlando next week. I'm so jealous! But I could never dislike the Chamber Choir people, for I love them all. Well, all the ones I know of course. You know what I'm worried about? My grades. I will pee my pants if I get a 3.0 this quarter, because I really slacked off. I need to step it up. I want to get at least a 3.8 4th quarter. Het, it could happen. Right?
I want pizza SO BAD. My mom bought me a cookie and it made me happy. And today is Amber's birthday so we should all be happy! And did I fail to mention our extremely beauitful weather that I have been waiting for? Well, we finally had some sunny weather, and now I cannot WAIT to get out my summer clothes. *sigh* I love when the school year is halfway over. It makes me smile.