what does a sad girl do? shop.
you could say ive had a rough few days. im done talking about it and thinking about it. im getting my life back. relationships do not control my life.
i went to one of the Belmont counselors today (because my emotions were scaring my dad) and i can honestly say an hour of talking to someone neutral really helped me. i have some unresolved issues within myself that need to be "reprogrammed" before i can really take full control of my life. im glad im doing this now before im completely on my own and then have a breakdown. this was not the result of a bad week, but a bad part of my youth that hovers over me like a cloud everyday and keeps pushing me down.
i will be ok. i am doing great things in my life and i have people that love and support my life. that is the first time in my life ive EVER been able to even begin to say that. im slowly letting go of all of the negative things that haunt me and all of the grudges ive been holding.
my sister is coming down this weekend for some good sisterly therapy time and a college weekend. we need each other now and we've never been hit with that before, but its bringing us closer and i love it.
also- i have an interview on thursday with a talent agent to be another intern. he represents models and tv reality stars and is hosting the national reality tv convention? interesting. when i looked at the pictures of the models online i almost passed out. hollllly crap this would be nice. but first i need to get my voice back because ive been sick for 5 days now and have completely lost my voice,
and my last also- i will be going to san diego in a month to visit shannon and see kevin play in la. sweeet deal. i need a vacation.
xo
i went to one of the Belmont counselors today (because my emotions were scaring my dad) and i can honestly say an hour of talking to someone neutral really helped me. i have some unresolved issues within myself that need to be "reprogrammed" before i can really take full control of my life. im glad im doing this now before im completely on my own and then have a breakdown. this was not the result of a bad week, but a bad part of my youth that hovers over me like a cloud everyday and keeps pushing me down.
i will be ok. i am doing great things in my life and i have people that love and support my life. that is the first time in my life ive EVER been able to even begin to say that. im slowly letting go of all of the negative things that haunt me and all of the grudges ive been holding.
my sister is coming down this weekend for some good sisterly therapy time and a college weekend. we need each other now and we've never been hit with that before, but its bringing us closer and i love it.
also- i have an interview on thursday with a talent agent to be another intern. he represents models and tv reality stars and is hosting the national reality tv convention? interesting. when i looked at the pictures of the models online i almost passed out. hollllly crap this would be nice. but first i need to get my voice back because ive been sick for 5 days now and have completely lost my voice,
and my last also- i will be going to san diego in a month to visit shannon and see kevin play in la. sweeet deal. i need a vacation.
xo