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i want to BE with him, i want to stay with him, i want him to want me, i know he misses me, and he misses the cuddling, and sleeping, and i definetly miss the falling asleep in his arms, why does this have to be so complicated, i understand he isnt ready for a relationship, and i will totally wait till he is ready, thats how stuck on him i am, lastnight, was wonderful, i fell asleep in his arms, and woke up in his arms, i think its one af the first days in months, that i've waken up with a smile on my face. i want it to be like that every day. i want to wake up and have something to look forward to other, then how much more longer will my gma let me stay with her, im tired of waking up crying, cuz im alone. i want goodnight sex and wake up sex every day, and i know that sounds horrible. but i like it, i like having someone to cook dinner for, someone to clean for. someone to come home to so i can say " hunny im home" someone who will hold me when something goes wrong, someone who will tell me they love me, someone who will let me wear their clothes cuz mine are dirty, or i just dont feel like wearing mine. BLAH IM HORRIBLE