002. I'm more then a bird, I'm more then a plane, I'm more then some pretty face ...
So i came home today snorted some coke and realized that Manny and i, although we live together, hardly hang out anymore. Just the two of us, ya know? So i called her ass up and we decided on a movie. Man Today was just so WOW! I have nevernevernevernevernevernevernever felt this happy and just amazing in general. I'm really loving everything about this Emma Drug. Manny and i decided to see a movie, our choice for the night was the one and only BrokeBack Mountain! And what a choice it was! Only towards the end of the movie i couldn't concentrate. i had so much to think about. So much to just ponder. I started writing on napkins, i think i managed to fill up twelve. Afterwards Manny and i went back home and just hung outSnorted some coke.
Anyways, what i've been thinking about ALOT tonight, was about labels. Why do people label each other? Who gives a shit if we're not 'The perfect little girl'? It's such hypocrisy...i mean who in there right mind can be perfect all the time? Yes, 'Miss save the world' makes mistakes. just like everyone else. Yes i do stuff i shouldn't be doing, but at the same time, i can't help but to. I want to experience so much more in my life. I felt like i hadn't cut loose and lived until tonight. Until i LET myself hang loose and try new stuff.
I have so much on my mind right now, i can't even begin to try to sleep. I feel like i HAVE to do something. i can't sit here on my ass and twidle my thumbs. I can't sleep. Food is so far from my mind, it's not even funny. I had alot of fun! I just wish Manny joined me for the last half of the night. We had a great discussion of why the smurfs are blue, of all colors. It was certainly very interesting. To bad manny had to miss it. I don't even know how she can even begin to process the word sleep at a time like this. I'm going crazy over here.
I went to the Ravine tonight. I've met some really cool people. Jackson sold me the coke last week. I've been on it for a couple days now. It's such an amazing feeling, i don't like i ever want to give this up. I've been able to sleep the last couple days though. Jack said sometimes it takes a body a couple times before you feel the full effects.
I tried something new tonight. Called Crank Very interesting drug, that Crank. I can't explain it. I snorted it like Coke, only now i feel my highest. I feel like i can literally achieve ANYTHING! We tried watching some cartoons eariler, only i couldn't concentrate.
I want wayyy more!
I have a weird urge to suddenly clean. I have to get this house spick and span by tomorrow.
♥ Emma
Anyways, what i've been thinking about ALOT tonight, was about labels. Why do people label each other? Who gives a shit if we're not 'The perfect little girl'? It's such hypocrisy...i mean who in there right mind can be perfect all the time? Yes, 'Miss save the world' makes mistakes. just like everyone else. Yes i do stuff i shouldn't be doing, but at the same time, i can't help but to. I want to experience so much more in my life. I felt like i hadn't cut loose and lived until tonight. Until i LET myself hang loose and try new stuff.
I have so much on my mind right now, i can't even begin to try to sleep. I feel like i HAVE to do something. i can't sit here on my ass and twidle my thumbs. I can't sleep. Food is so far from my mind, it's not even funny. I had alot of fun! I just wish Manny joined me for the last half of the night. We had a great discussion of why the smurfs are blue, of all colors. It was certainly very interesting. To bad manny had to miss it. I don't even know how she can even begin to process the word sleep at a time like this. I'm going crazy over here.
I went to the Ravine tonight. I've met some really cool people. Jackson sold me the coke last week. I've been on it for a couple days now. It's such an amazing feeling, i don't like i ever want to give this up. I've been able to sleep the last couple days though. Jack said sometimes it takes a body a couple times before you feel the full effects.
I tried something new tonight. Called Crank Very interesting drug, that Crank. I can't explain it. I snorted it like Coke, only now i feel my highest. I feel like i can literally achieve ANYTHING! We tried watching some cartoons eariler, only i couldn't concentrate.
I want wayyy more!
I have a weird urge to suddenly clean. I have to get this house spick and span by tomorrow.
♥ Emma