hold your breath and count to ten, then fall apart, then start again.
I'm going to tonight. If anyone wants to know why, it's because I'm sick of things always staying the same. Maybe this will make things different. Better or worse, I don't know. But different. After tonight something about my life will have changed and won't be the same anymore. The thought scares me but I like it. I don't know if it should be a big deal or not cause no one ever talks about it. It's a big deal for me though because of the circumstances. Maybe I know that I shouldn't be doing this. Maybe the reason I'm doing it is because I'm punishing myself by doing something that I know I don't want to do.
I'm scared. Someone hug me.
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