fuuuuuuck

[notyourcowgirl]

okay i am so fucking confused. what the fuck. why is it that when i am with someone other boys want me but when in single i dont seem to get any action. im not even "with" someone right now. i dont know. he needs to fucking make it clear to me. ive obviously proved to him that im like him, and that i can keep my mouth shut about things. you know? like ive played this shit out really well. fuuuuuck... i fucking like him so much. and i keep telling myself not to like him. i keep telling myself that being in a relationship only leads to heartbreak and pain. but with him, fuck, i dont care what the outsome is. all i can think about is right now and how much i want to be with him. i just want him to tell everyone that we are together. but at the same time i dont want people to know because i dont want anything to ruin it. tomorrow i will tell him how i feel and HOPEFULLY he responds with "i like you too, lets be official." story of my life... damnit.

school tomorrow, damn. star testing damn. tony tomorrow, <3 hell yeah. rachel tomorrow, <3 hell yeah.

chrissy <3s tony