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so as I lay in my bed, not sleeping, I got to thinking. About things from the past we can no longer do anything about. It came down to a thought about material things I've lost. All my movies I had collected and stuffed animals I had as a small child are probably all now in a dump somewhere in Indiana. I shouldn't have left them there but, with the events that unfolded, I had very little choice. She'd never have them sent here either. Even if I asked. Hell, I have asked. I even asked for the money back she said she would pay me back. Never got it. Just more proof the girl was only out for herself.
It sucks though. I'll never have a popple again. Not an original one anyways. Poor Popcorn :( And the teddy bear my great aunt gave me when I was 6. Gone. It all just sucks. Everytime I think about that shit, I realize more and more how much of a mistake all those things were. Moving. Going after her. All of it. I don't regret any of it, as I've said before. I learned a lot from it all. It was just one of the bigger mistakes in my life. Who knows where I'd be right now if I had stayed here and kept my job and my grand am. My life probably wouldn't have gone the way it has.
But, I went. I did. For a while. And I shouldn't have.
I miss my stuffed animals :( I'll never be able to pass on the memories.
It sucks though. I'll never have a popple again. Not an original one anyways. Poor Popcorn :( And the teddy bear my great aunt gave me when I was 6. Gone. It all just sucks. Everytime I think about that shit, I realize more and more how much of a mistake all those things were. Moving. Going after her. All of it. I don't regret any of it, as I've said before. I learned a lot from it all. It was just one of the bigger mistakes in my life. Who knows where I'd be right now if I had stayed here and kept my job and my grand am. My life probably wouldn't have gone the way it has.
But, I went. I did. For a while. And I shouldn't have.
I miss my stuffed animals :( I'll never be able to pass on the memories.