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Im going to rant here, so don't read it if you don't want to.
I dunno if it's fair to give someone I'm interested in a chance, when I'm still kinda down from the last one. I don't really know if that's fair. Thats my problem. I might just be scared to get involved again I don't really know. I might just like the feeling of someone liking me, but I don't think that's it, because I mean I had a few other people like me... but I wasn't interested in them, and I'm definately interested in this person. I feel like a jerk, because I told this person that I didn't really know if I liked him or not... well I mean obviously I do like him because if I didn't then I would have said that I didnt like him n just wanted to be friends..but I didn't say that. UGH as one of my friends told me.. I should get over it and give him a shot because I DO like him and it will make me happier n whatnot. Because he is a nice guy, and I wanna get to know him more... But on the other hand it won't be fair to him, like it's not fair to him now. He doesn't deserve this he's a nice guy... and I'm just so confused now and I really don't mean to be a jerk.. n I dunno if he knows that... Oh man.. why must I always think things through?? Most people just go right along with things n make mistakes and learn from them.. I just don't wanner make a mistake.. I dunnoooooooo. :/
Yea sorry I'm ranting... I just needed to write it down.