i know i'm alone if i'm with or without you...

[notxthatxgirl]

sometimes life just doesnt work out how you think it will...
i have based so many decisions in my life
on something that seemed so concrete...
and now it's all gone.
but i guess there is a reason for everything.
and i guess i will live.
if people never changed,
then life would just stay the same...
and i like familiar things.
right now nothing in my life is familiar.
no more tiny private school.
no more ken.
no more anything.
i like to be in control.
and everything i know is out of my control.