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its been a long time since ive been on here. im going to go ahead and say it...im lonely in this new city. i have luke, but...its different. i dont have anyone to get coffee with at 2am. i wake up, go to work, come home, sleep, repeat. on my days off i go the beach and the grocery store. i do have emily, but we're not that close yet...working on it though! she a buffalo girl (shes from riverside) so we share a lot of the same experiences, values, family history, boy history (she went rhough almost exactly what i went through and is better and tougher because of it...i hope i will be someday soon also) i need to talk about my recent conflicts with luke. its nothing major, but enough to have me in tears lately. i find myself... missing certain people that i shouldnt. people i said goodbye to years ago. i just spoke with cait about it, but over the phone isnt the same. i need someone face to face. i need intense late night coffee chats. i need... help. i dont know what to do. in the same day, i can go from loving LA to totally hating LA. i just... cannot wait to come home. i wont want to come back here. i dont feel like i live here yet. i dont know if i ever will. i know in 10 years, i wont be here. so whats the difference?