vii (voice).

[notvader]

[ patience. that's what obi-wan would suggest in a situation like this. patience. but, patience was something that anakin skywalker had never been very fond of or good at and now certainly wasn't helping him get any better at it. if anything, it was making his impatience worse. this place was a brick wall, an impenetrable wall the jedi general

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[Voice]

[derek_bliss]

[Random voice on Derek's journal, say hello to random voice back. And the sound of chalk on...drywall?]

Not always easy, but usually worth it [is his distracted reply]

[Voice]

[notvader]

[ anakin snorts in response, having been previously alerted to his journal's intrusion of his privacy by yako. ]

Depends on the worth. Everyone has their limits. [ a huff of a sigh. ] Even me.

[Voice]

[derek_bliss]

Guess that would be up to you, then.

And yeah, everyone does. What's pushing you to yours?

[Voice]

[notvader]

You-- [ don't want to know? can't begin to fathom? ] --wouldn't understand. It's complicated. Personal. Not something I really want to talk about.

[ only he does, but anyone who would be qualified to give him any sort of worthy advice is back home in a galaxy he's currently unable to reach. ]

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[derek_bliss]

*sigh* It's likely I wouldn't understand your specific problem, no. But sometimes just talking it out, even in generalities, can help. Find someone you can trust, even if you don't think they'd understand the whole thing, and let them be your sounding board. You'd be surprised.

[Voice]

[notvader]

[ sarcastically, yet somewhat truthfully, he responds-- ]

I'm feeling telepathically drawn to something I shouldn't.

[Voice]

[derek_bliss]

...hmn. [More chalk on drywall sounds]

Did it start just this week, or has it been like this for a while?

[Voice]

[notvader]

I've been Force Sensitive all my life.

[ is his answer, despite the fact that he knows the man is asking about the pull of the dark side and not his hyperawareness. ]

[Voice]

[derek_bliss]

[A pause while Derek does his best to put that response into a basic idea he can understand]

So it's drawing you to do something.

...like an addiction would?

[Voice]

[notvader]

[ that's...surprisingly accurate and causes anakin to answer a bit more evenly than he had been. ]

In a way, but more like a constant threat that's always there. For everyone. A threat that's always appealing. It's just...more appealing right now.

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[derek_bliss]

[Another long pause with nothing but that chalk moving. Then, it stops, and the response is quiet.]

...Yeah. I have that too. Probably not from the same cause, though. And possibly not the same result if I give in to it.

What's the trigger for you?

[Voice]

[notvader]

[ trigger? that was difficult to explain, as was everything about what he was and what he could do. back home, force sensitive was a term people understood. here, he had to say he was telepathic, telekinetic, hyperaware... and even then, that really didn't cover it. ]

This place. Restlessness. Not doing what I'm supposed to be doing.

[Voice]

[derek_bliss]

In other words 'I shouldn't be here, and there's things I have to do back home'.

You're frustrated, probably angry, and they don't make it any where near possible for us to get our hands on them. Right?

[Voice]

[notvader]

Precisely that.

Re: [Voice]

[derek_bliss]

I'll be honest; I can't really give you much advice that wouldn't come across as trite right now, other than try and focus all that energy into doing something other than what you're tempted to do with it. Even if it doesn't help you get out of here, there should be things you can do while here that will at least help the feeling of getting something accomplished.

What that is, though? Is your call.