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hi =)
i'm waiting for johnson to get home from skewl so we can eat dinner together
=)
he's not going to get fast food after class for once! and my mom made steak, cheesy potatos, and peas.. so i guess i'm looking forward to it?
w/e
=)
i'm in a surprisingloy good mood, considering i've been doing hw since about 2pm with only a few breaks to watch some 7th heaven =/ lol. and i even missed the central chaos practice tonight b/c i just felt it would be better to 1- conserve gas and 2- conserve time b/c i'm realllly behind on all my homework =/
ok i was really mushy gushy yesterday? i don't know why buit i felt like really loving to johnson lol.. he should appreciate it since a lot of the time i feel so blah and dont' want to be romantic or w/e ya know?
=( johnson sprained his ankle yesterday =( well is a really mild sprain, he didn't go to the hostpitol, he just ignored it hahaha but it's feeling better today, i hear =/ poorrrrr johnson! =( he was just gettin off of work and he rides his lil razor scooter, bike, or skateboard from his work place to his car everyday.. yesterday he was on the scooter and he went over a hill and tipped over or something and twisted his ankle =( i don't think it's really "sprained" very much cuz i think iv'e done this to my ankle before.. and it only takes a few days to heal, but it makes you limp and it gets swollen. =( johnson is silly too b/c i don't think he likes me to help him.. like i tried to make him lean on me when we went to fred meyer last night but he really didn't lean on me lol.. JOHNSON! HUMOR ME AND LET ME TAKE CARRE OF YOU! =P i call him "Hop-along" and "limpy" and stuff now heheheh it's cute! <3 and i had to drive us yesterday b/c his ankle was hurting when he used the brakes a lot, and he had to drive with cruise control so he wouldn't over-use his ankle. cute!
i'm a lil gimpy limpy today too b/c we had P.E. =/ well i'm ina health class but he wanted us to do one day of pe crap... and i hate pe, but i think i finally figured out why: it's b/c i love pe deep down in side. =/ wtf, i know... ? but umm.. i just get really competitive, like we played this capture the flag thing and i got really competitive about it and i was running all over the place.. so therefore i get really hot, tired, and sweaty.,. i can't stand doing less than i am capable of.. i have these expectations and standards for myself, and i have to try hard to succeed at EVERYTHING i do, including pe, therefore i'm not just one of those girls who's like "oh i hate pe, i'm going to slack off and stand around"... even if i feel like that's what i want to do, i always push myself to do my best, whether i want to or not... sooo yeah.. i hate it cuz like i said i push myself.. and pushing myself makes me unhappy b/c i always hurt myself.. like my legs get sore, or i twist my ankle, or i break all my freakin nails, and then i go to my classes after pe all sweaty and smelling and hot... so w/e i had fun tho! so ha! i bet you can't say so much for your day... lol well maybe you can ok i'm rambling.. the point is, i dont' hate pe so much b/c i hate it but b/c i like it too much for my own good?? idk
i just wanted to mention that i think britney's video for me against the music sucks and i think they're over-using the appeal of madonna kissing britey =( i'm finally starting to like the song now... but the video also just seems to be extremely similar to slave, boys, and her other recent videos... the same type of lighting, dancing scenes, club scenes... ugh =/ and yeah.. it's just i was thinking about this a lot last night and i used to be like huge mega hardcore brit fan.. but i took a lot of pinups of her off my wall.. and i'm just not a fan of her much right now/// i mean i'll always have a soft spot for her tho.. but i'm more of a fan of angelina jolie that anybody else (besides johnson! <3).... but didn you HEAR brit's voice? it's soooo deep and scratchy... she really needs to stop msoking =( and she just acts so ditzy and stupid and slow.. and i'm just like "why dont' you go get a hs diploma and then come talk to me" uhg..... she's so STUPID as in ... the way she talks! she says "and stuff" "dude" "right on" "rock on" and it's just scary? and she's just... well she seems to never grow up in some respects.. and she also seems really unaware of life, reality, etc.... she seems like just a beautiful face with nothing much else going for her and it makes me sad b/c i used to see in her a woman i wanted to be but now it's very far from that and the way she's acting is causing her to lose a lot of fans.. she's not a good role model anymore =( ok i'm sad so i'm going to move away from the subject
plans for this weekend: friday- haunted house? and shopping to get some food cuz i wanna cook dinner on sunday =) saturday- dinner at outback with johnson.. we're going to have a nice romantic date together and just forget about the homecoming dance.. and lemme just tell ya, i have some nice romantic things planned =) shhh dont' tell johnson.. also we're going to shop for halloween costumes on sat, and get pictures taken of us in our fancy clothes at walmart! cute! sunday- like i said, i might wanna cook dinner again b/c i am now a world-renown chef, you know...
thennn.... on halloween, i think me and johnson are going to go to a rave in sea-town.... and the day after hween, we're going to have a party thing here.. my mom's going to cook bonya caulda (do you even know wtf that is?) and i am CONSIDERING inviting jenn and jess. so we'll seeeee.....
ummm it's about 10:30 and johnson should be here any minute so that does it for this entry! <3
ps- i want some corn pops! =/
pps- i need a good cute updo hairstyle for my date on saturday.. if you have any ideas and pictures, dun be afraid to let me know!!! HINT HINT! =D
ppps- in my previous entry, i was so cynical and angry about certain things.. and i just wanted to mention that i'm over it. this is my motto for life: i will always strive to change the world, even if it's just one person at a time, but some people and things will not change. i can only do so much, and the rest is up to others, fate, karma, god, destiny, whatever you want to think... and whatever happens has to be accepted and dealt with in an appropriate mannor. as long as i live my life the way i want, and with good intentions, i should get nothing negative in return, and if i am treated unfairly, i will turn my other cheek, so to speak.. it's not up to me to see to it that justice is served. so that brings me peace, knowing that i'm doing what i can do and i can continurally strive to be a better person. if other people can't connect with their feeligns, beliefs, or spirituality the way i just have, then so be it, and when they do wrong things, somehow they will be punished or learn their lesson. and all i care about is seeing to it that people somehow learn a lesson, and don't treat others the way they have treated me. it's not about money anymore... maybe it was for a second, but it's not now, and it never should. anyway that's all.. i just did a lot of thinking yesterday, and discussing with johnson, and this is how i feel now, and it makes me feel incredibly peaceful. and i feel like i've matured, grown, and become a very good person... over the years..so w/e, i can just see the difference in my attitudes and beliefs, so it makes me happy that i'm learning and bettering myself =) that can only lead to good things in life. so i guess i'm a wee bit optimistic right now. =)
ok fin
i'm waiting for johnson to get home from skewl so we can eat dinner together
=)
he's not going to get fast food after class for once! and my mom made steak, cheesy potatos, and peas.. so i guess i'm looking forward to it?
w/e
=)
i'm in a surprisingloy good mood, considering i've been doing hw since about 2pm with only a few breaks to watch some 7th heaven =/ lol. and i even missed the central chaos practice tonight b/c i just felt it would be better to 1- conserve gas and 2- conserve time b/c i'm realllly behind on all my homework =/
ok i was really mushy gushy yesterday? i don't know why buit i felt like really loving to johnson lol.. he should appreciate it since a lot of the time i feel so blah and dont' want to be romantic or w/e ya know?
=( johnson sprained his ankle yesterday =( well is a really mild sprain, he didn't go to the hostpitol, he just ignored it hahaha but it's feeling better today, i hear =/ poorrrrr johnson! =( he was just gettin off of work and he rides his lil razor scooter, bike, or skateboard from his work place to his car everyday.. yesterday he was on the scooter and he went over a hill and tipped over or something and twisted his ankle =( i don't think it's really "sprained" very much cuz i think iv'e done this to my ankle before.. and it only takes a few days to heal, but it makes you limp and it gets swollen. =( johnson is silly too b/c i don't think he likes me to help him.. like i tried to make him lean on me when we went to fred meyer last night but he really didn't lean on me lol.. JOHNSON! HUMOR ME AND LET ME TAKE CARRE OF YOU! =P i call him "Hop-along" and "limpy" and stuff now heheheh it's cute! <3 and i had to drive us yesterday b/c his ankle was hurting when he used the brakes a lot, and he had to drive with cruise control so he wouldn't over-use his ankle. cute!
i'm a lil gimpy limpy today too b/c we had P.E. =/ well i'm ina health class but he wanted us to do one day of pe crap... and i hate pe, but i think i finally figured out why: it's b/c i love pe deep down in side. =/ wtf, i know... ? but umm.. i just get really competitive, like we played this capture the flag thing and i got really competitive about it and i was running all over the place.. so therefore i get really hot, tired, and sweaty.,. i can't stand doing less than i am capable of.. i have these expectations and standards for myself, and i have to try hard to succeed at EVERYTHING i do, including pe, therefore i'm not just one of those girls who's like "oh i hate pe, i'm going to slack off and stand around"... even if i feel like that's what i want to do, i always push myself to do my best, whether i want to or not... sooo yeah.. i hate it cuz like i said i push myself.. and pushing myself makes me unhappy b/c i always hurt myself.. like my legs get sore, or i twist my ankle, or i break all my freakin nails, and then i go to my classes after pe all sweaty and smelling and hot... so w/e i had fun tho! so ha! i bet you can't say so much for your day... lol well maybe you can ok i'm rambling.. the point is, i dont' hate pe so much b/c i hate it but b/c i like it too much for my own good?? idk
i just wanted to mention that i think britney's video for me against the music sucks and i think they're over-using the appeal of madonna kissing britey =( i'm finally starting to like the song now... but the video also just seems to be extremely similar to slave, boys, and her other recent videos... the same type of lighting, dancing scenes, club scenes... ugh =/ and yeah.. it's just i was thinking about this a lot last night and i used to be like huge mega hardcore brit fan.. but i took a lot of pinups of her off my wall.. and i'm just not a fan of her much right now/// i mean i'll always have a soft spot for her tho.. but i'm more of a fan of angelina jolie that anybody else (besides johnson! <3).... but didn you HEAR brit's voice? it's soooo deep and scratchy... she really needs to stop msoking =( and she just acts so ditzy and stupid and slow.. and i'm just like "why dont' you go get a hs diploma and then come talk to me" uhg..... she's so STUPID as in ... the way she talks! she says "and stuff" "dude" "right on" "rock on" and it's just scary? and she's just... well she seems to never grow up in some respects.. and she also seems really unaware of life, reality, etc.... she seems like just a beautiful face with nothing much else going for her and it makes me sad b/c i used to see in her a woman i wanted to be but now it's very far from that and the way she's acting is causing her to lose a lot of fans.. she's not a good role model anymore =( ok i'm sad so i'm going to move away from the subject
plans for this weekend: friday- haunted house? and shopping to get some food cuz i wanna cook dinner on sunday =) saturday- dinner at outback with johnson.. we're going to have a nice romantic date together and just forget about the homecoming dance.. and lemme just tell ya, i have some nice romantic things planned =) shhh dont' tell johnson.. also we're going to shop for halloween costumes on sat, and get pictures taken of us in our fancy clothes at walmart! cute! sunday- like i said, i might wanna cook dinner again b/c i am now a world-renown chef, you know...
thennn.... on halloween, i think me and johnson are going to go to a rave in sea-town.... and the day after hween, we're going to have a party thing here.. my mom's going to cook bonya caulda (do you even know wtf that is?) and i am CONSIDERING inviting jenn and jess. so we'll seeeee.....
ummm it's about 10:30 and johnson should be here any minute so that does it for this entry! <3
ps- i want some corn pops! =/
pps- i need a good cute updo hairstyle for my date on saturday.. if you have any ideas and pictures, dun be afraid to let me know!!! HINT HINT! =D
ppps- in my previous entry, i was so cynical and angry about certain things.. and i just wanted to mention that i'm over it. this is my motto for life: i will always strive to change the world, even if it's just one person at a time, but some people and things will not change. i can only do so much, and the rest is up to others, fate, karma, god, destiny, whatever you want to think... and whatever happens has to be accepted and dealt with in an appropriate mannor. as long as i live my life the way i want, and with good intentions, i should get nothing negative in return, and if i am treated unfairly, i will turn my other cheek, so to speak.. it's not up to me to see to it that justice is served. so that brings me peace, knowing that i'm doing what i can do and i can continurally strive to be a better person. if other people can't connect with their feeligns, beliefs, or spirituality the way i just have, then so be it, and when they do wrong things, somehow they will be punished or learn their lesson. and all i care about is seeing to it that people somehow learn a lesson, and don't treat others the way they have treated me. it's not about money anymore... maybe it was for a second, but it's not now, and it never should. anyway that's all.. i just did a lot of thinking yesterday, and discussing with johnson, and this is how i feel now, and it makes me feel incredibly peaceful. and i feel like i've matured, grown, and become a very good person... over the years..so w/e, i can just see the difference in my attitudes and beliefs, so it makes me happy that i'm learning and bettering myself =) that can only lead to good things in life. so i guess i'm a wee bit optimistic right now. =)
ok fin