Everything Happens For A Reason
Well, I haven't updated in awhile, so i figured that now was a great time to. The past couple of days have been pretty shitty. I'm running on nothing but a couple hours of sleep and a whole lot of courage. The past two days outside of work I've been tearing off the roof of this house with Tristan and Joshua. My grade are dropping quicker than the stock market in the thirties. I don't care much for school anymore, my math teacher is a nigger loving devil whore, and my English teacher is a stuck up christ loving hippy humper. They dampen my day for only two of the twenty that i'm awake.
In middle school, when I thought of myself as introspective instead of stupid I told myself that I would never let money control my life or turn me into something i didn't want to be. I fail miserably at promissing myself, I've gotten pretty good at it. I never break promisses to others, but myself I can't say. yeah, money controls my life worse than crack controls Bobby Brown's. I am not the worst of the devils to say the least though. I've seen people go from nothing to everything and opposite. Money changes people. If it were punishable by death I'd still be ok though. It takes a good 20 years to die on death row. I can cope, I don't want to die old. I've been working really hard on editing recently. Our team is creating something great. I just need to find a way to make the world see it
Over the past couple of months I've expanded my circle of friends to people I never thought I'd let in. My passion for driving and being an asshole has helped me assemble a team of friends. I'd do anything for these kids, as they would for me. Some of them have been there for awhile, some not. Either way, I am proud to say that they are helping in the growing up cycle.
I am greatful for something that I haven't written too much about recently. That would be my girlfriend. I don't have a good enough vocabulary to express how I feel about her, and that should amaze you. I'm going through a wierd time in my life right now and I am a firm believer in the fact that she holds everything together for me. She's my girlfriend and on top of that, she's one of my best friends. She picks me up everymorning because i blew my car up drifting, she brings me dinner at work, she comes and sees me after work... Have you ever watched someone sleep for two hours...
I have...
For the longest time I've felt as if there was something missing in my life. A small part or chuck, crack, ravine, I don't know missing in my heart. You know, you wake up every morning and just stare straight ahead, not a particularly anything, but it's there. You think,"just another morning." RIGHT? Now waking up is different. It works the same way with sleeping except it doesn't go away. I lose sleep over her, but I don't mind. I try to talk to her every night before she goes to sleep just so she knows I care about her. She by far fills and smoothes over every hole in my heart that has ever been dug by anyone else. She good for me.
I'm sorry that I'm not being too poetic and I'm not hiding anything in my writting tonight, I have no stories to tell or people to hate on. Love is a word I like to shy away from because it has such a powerful meaning to me versus how other people reserve it. My best friends Kevin, Tristan, Brittney, Mullford, Joshua, Eric, Liz, Leslie, Lexi. and Derek all make me what I am today, and I'm proud. I love them. I'm going to Taste Of Chaos on Saturday, tag along, It'll be fun...
With you I am truly in my element...
In middle school, when I thought of myself as introspective instead of stupid I told myself that I would never let money control my life or turn me into something i didn't want to be. I fail miserably at promissing myself, I've gotten pretty good at it. I never break promisses to others, but myself I can't say. yeah, money controls my life worse than crack controls Bobby Brown's. I am not the worst of the devils to say the least though. I've seen people go from nothing to everything and opposite. Money changes people. If it were punishable by death I'd still be ok though. It takes a good 20 years to die on death row. I can cope, I don't want to die old. I've been working really hard on editing recently. Our team is creating something great. I just need to find a way to make the world see it
Over the past couple of months I've expanded my circle of friends to people I never thought I'd let in. My passion for driving and being an asshole has helped me assemble a team of friends. I'd do anything for these kids, as they would for me. Some of them have been there for awhile, some not. Either way, I am proud to say that they are helping in the growing up cycle.
I am greatful for something that I haven't written too much about recently. That would be my girlfriend. I don't have a good enough vocabulary to express how I feel about her, and that should amaze you. I'm going through a wierd time in my life right now and I am a firm believer in the fact that she holds everything together for me. She's my girlfriend and on top of that, she's one of my best friends. She picks me up everymorning because i blew my car up drifting, she brings me dinner at work, she comes and sees me after work... Have you ever watched someone sleep for two hours...
I have...
For the longest time I've felt as if there was something missing in my life. A small part or chuck, crack, ravine, I don't know missing in my heart. You know, you wake up every morning and just stare straight ahead, not a particularly anything, but it's there. You think,"just another morning." RIGHT? Now waking up is different. It works the same way with sleeping except it doesn't go away. I lose sleep over her, but I don't mind. I try to talk to her every night before she goes to sleep just so she knows I care about her. She by far fills and smoothes over every hole in my heart that has ever been dug by anyone else. She good for me.
I'm sorry that I'm not being too poetic and I'm not hiding anything in my writting tonight, I have no stories to tell or people to hate on. Love is a word I like to shy away from because it has such a powerful meaning to me versus how other people reserve it. My best friends Kevin, Tristan, Brittney, Mullford, Joshua, Eric, Liz, Leslie, Lexi. and Derek all make me what I am today, and I'm proud. I love them. I'm going to Taste Of Chaos on Saturday, tag along, It'll be fun...
With you I am truly in my element...