Cushioned Mind Space
I didn't think it would be that different without Draco. Now I realize what a buffer he'd been between the others and I. They would look to him for the quintessential Slytherin words and actions. I was left to be on my own, something I rather prefer to the alternative of being the center of attention.
I have not changed any of my actions, my reading or scheduled meals. And yet, even now as they all studiously ignore me, I feel the silence as oppressive instead of comforting. Am I expected to act a certain way, be a certain way?
I have never had expectations before. It is unnerving.
That is not true. I have had expectations, but never before have I been unaware of the consequences of not fulfilling them. A failing grade they cannot give me; a beating they would not.
I hope.
June, perhaps, does not ignore me, but as the only person I have witnessed interacting with Snape on a amiacable basis, I wish her the best of luck for it and try not to intrude. I would not lose her ... friendship ... if I had a choice in it. But perhaps it was only formed of familiar living situations.
We will see, I suppose.
At the very least Snape will not have to worry about Kebby getting into his lab or belongings, despite how she may have wanted to.
He will most likely be happy to see me go.
The unwanted Slytherin student.
The reason for wasting magic and space.
...
The one who isn't Draco Malfoy. How many times shall I be punished for not being a Malfoy?
Appropriate that my name is Nott -- for I never Am something. I am just Nott something.
...
Merlin, I'm maudlin. Theodore, it's just a change of location! Stop your pity party! Do you expect other people to treat you like Draco Malfoy, the princeling of Slytherins?
...no. I expect them to treat me like Theodore Nott: bookish, quiet, useless Slytherin generally disregarded by everyone.
Very well.
Sir,
I will be moving into Pansy Parkinson's flat. Thank you for allowing me to stay here briefly.
T. Nott.
June,
I will be moving into Pansy Parkinson's flat. Please keep in touch.
Theodore.