el guapo. (couldn't think of anything better)
i went to the gym last night (on my period) and it felt great! I ran and i cleared my head. i only hope i keep this shit up.
my aunt signed me up for what not to wear. thanks. i have some sort of style. she needs to be on there more than me. all she wears are disney shirts! now seriously, i am stylish. i know my best friend tells me when i am not. he's my stylist and then there's his boyfriend. I try. I was watching that show last night. There was a girl who had similar proportions to me. I took some hints. if only my wallet would allow me to buy new clothes. i need a pencil skirt and a cute jacket that cinches my waist. i also got make-up hints. i would like to get some highlights in my hair, again...the wallet. damn money and damn universal for not paying me enough.
i feel like a fat blob right now. seriously... i've even thought of *not eating* but then i get hungry. fuck. when will i ever learn?
oh, yeah and i've been thinking about Matt a lot lately. that sucks. i had a dream that he'd contact me. that was the day before michael's ex-girlfriend contacted him. coinceidence? i don't know. he's always gonna be there. really. he'll always haunt me. fuck. sometimes i wish i could erase him and start over. that'd be refreshing. maybe i'd be in a better place right now. i've been considering looking @ his Myspace, then again, what would that solve and it would piss me off if he was in a relationship.
my aunt signed me up for what not to wear. thanks. i have some sort of style. she needs to be on there more than me. all she wears are disney shirts! now seriously, i am stylish. i know my best friend tells me when i am not. he's my stylist and then there's his boyfriend. I try. I was watching that show last night. There was a girl who had similar proportions to me. I took some hints. if only my wallet would allow me to buy new clothes. i need a pencil skirt and a cute jacket that cinches my waist. i also got make-up hints. i would like to get some highlights in my hair, again...the wallet. damn money and damn universal for not paying me enough.
i feel like a fat blob right now. seriously... i've even thought of *not eating* but then i get hungry. fuck. when will i ever learn?
oh, yeah and i've been thinking about Matt a lot lately. that sucks. i had a dream that he'd contact me. that was the day before michael's ex-girlfriend contacted him. coinceidence? i don't know. he's always gonna be there. really. he'll always haunt me. fuck. sometimes i wish i could erase him and start over. that'd be refreshing. maybe i'd be in a better place right now. i've been considering looking @ his Myspace, then again, what would that solve and it would piss me off if he was in a relationship.