*sigh*
sometimes i just feel like saying i give up....you win. to him. i don't think he even knows what he's done. he's seen me ball about it, seen how i look at him, seen the look in my eyes when i look at how he's changed. and what
he still doesn't
get
it
it's almost been 5 years now. i only wish i could've helped him sooner. and i keep thinking there's something wrong with me for thinking that, after what he did to me everyday of my life. i still love him. i don't want to, but i do. i don't even get depressed about it anymore. i'm just...numb. i don't even know. it's become logic.
feels like i've failed and i just need to admit it, and get over it.
i give up.
if you want to know. ask me. maybe i'll tell. maybe i won't. but if i don't, i expect you to understand.
he still doesn't
get
it
it's almost been 5 years now. i only wish i could've helped him sooner. and i keep thinking there's something wrong with me for thinking that, after what he did to me everyday of my life. i still love him. i don't want to, but i do. i don't even get depressed about it anymore. i'm just...numb. i don't even know. it's become logic.
feels like i've failed and i just need to admit it, and get over it.
i give up.
if you want to know. ask me. maybe i'll tell. maybe i won't. but if i don't, i expect you to understand.