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Today wasn't as bad as yesterday... My ankle hurt alot and I was cripple... Because of my 'accident' on the ATV last night... We ate good food in Spanish because of Cinco De Mayo... Yummy... Had state testing in Geometry... I guessed on the last 6 pages of each section... Because I got really lazy... Haha... In chorus I spent most of the time talking to Jordan... I felt really bad... Then we went to lunch and talked to Kevin and stuff... Study was boring and I just listened to my Crossfade CD like usual... Talked to Mike Bonner and Justin on the bus... Nothing special... :-|
Well my mom and I talked today... I'm not going on the Chorus Trip to Pennsylvania any more... I told her how much I don't want to go and that it'll just be a waste of money if I did... So she's going to write Mrs. Masse a note so I can get the money back... :-)
I'm not going to the Potowomut Yard Sales on Saturday... Because no one told me they were going until I had already made other plans... I wish I could still go though because I miss everyone so much... And I really need to see people outside of Coventry... No offense to my Coventry friends.... Because I love you... But I need to see my other friends too... :-\
I really hate people right now... I try to be there for someone and it ends up starting a fight... I honestly mean it when I say I don't like fighting with everyone... It gets old really fast... When I was trying to help Jordan I wasn't doing it to get people mad... I didn't even know who else it had to do with... I was just trying to help a friend when I saw that she needed it... And now I have people printing out our conversations and showing them to people... I'm not the one that started this... But I am going to end it... Amanda Austin is really pissed off right now... Tomorrow I'm going to have to hold her back so that she doesn't get suspended for beating 'someone' up... I'm not even kidding about this... I really can't believe all this is going on... Everything was going okay... And then this happens and life goes down the drain... I really hate all this drama... It's really starting to bother me and make me hate life... >:-|
Kait burnt me the Taking Back Sunday and A Walk To Remember CDs... I'm so excited to get them... Thanks Kait... :-)
I've been feeling really low the last couple of days... Like nothing seems to be going right... I don't know why... I was fine last week... I couldn't have been happier... But then everything went down and I only looked at the bad things again... I hate looking at life like this... It makes me dread each and every day... I wish things were back to the way they were before 1/23/05... Not that I wish I didn't go out with Steve(Believe me)... I just wish I was happy and everything like I was back then... It seems like so long ago... But really it was just a few months ago... I can't wait til this all goes away and everything is good again... I really miss it... :-(
Jordan ~ I'm sorry about everything that is going on... I don't care if you forgive me for what I did... I will always be here for you when you need me... I may not be able to help you... But I can listen and atleast try... I'm not going to fight with people to be your friend... But I'm always going to be here... I love you... Be careful... :-*
So I’m the king of all these things
Of this mess I have made
Such a waste
What a shame
My whole life is a fake
Well I’m a bore and I’m sure
I’m a thorn inside of you
That has torn at you for years
The alcohol, the Demerol,
These things never could replace
What a minute with you could do
To put a smile on my face
Well I’m a bore and I’m sure
I’m a thorn inside of you
That has torn at me for years
I can’t get out of this dead skin
I can’t shed my skin
Not sure where to begin
I can’t get under my dead skin
I can’t shed my skin
Can I sleep till then?
Phenobarbital and alcohol
These two surely will do
To knock me out
To keep me down
At least a day or two
When I’m awake
I can taste how bitter I’ve become
And it’s more than I can bear
Some days I pray, someone will blow me away
Make it quick, but let it burn
So I can feel my life fade
Well, I’m a waste, and I can taste
How bitter I’ve become
And it’s more than I can bear
I can’t get out of this dead skin
I can’t shed my skin
Not sure where to begin
I can’t get under my dead skin
I can’t shed my skin
Can I sleep til then?
(I can't shed my skin)
(I can't shed my skin)
I can’t get out of this dead skin
Not so well to begin
I can’t get under my dead skin
Can I sleep til then?
I can’t get out of this dead skin
I can’t shed my skin
Not so well to begin
I can’t get under my dead skin
I can’t shed my skin
Can I sleep til then?