its one of those days
there was a couple of awkward moments today... before homeroom amanda and i walked by steve... i thought she stopped to talk to him... it wouldve been really awkward if she did... but she didnt... then after lunch i walked by sinaki and steve... it was weird to see them together... i was glad tho because they havent talked for a while kinda because of me... and i was just glad to see them talking and stuff... it actually made me happy... weird but it did... then i fell asleep doing state testing in english... so i went to the 'bathroom' but really i just walked around... then on my way back to class... i turned down the hallway and saw steve and biggs... i was thinking about turning around because it was going to be awkward to walk by them... but i just kept walking because i didnt feel like acting gay about this whole thing... steve and i both looked at our feet... :-$
i dont know... this is all so weird... im sorry about everything i did... i really hope he eventually somewhat forgives me and we can be friends... i dont put this stuff in my journal and profile to piss him off... he called me a cunt tho... that really hurts... but i dont blame him for being mean to me... i was really mean to him... and i deserve everything ive been given... i wish he would just talk to me about it... instead of completely forgetting me... :-\
i still dont know what to do about the chorus trip... i told mrs. masse im not going... but i need to have a note from my mom to get the money back... i really dont want to go any more... i hope she lets me drop it... she should because then she has like 420$ that she wasnt expecting... i hope she doesnt make me go... im really going to hate it... >:-|
well it was one of those days where i pretended to be happy... i dont want people feeling bad for me or anything... im doing fine... after last night... today felt like everything was going wrong... so i was kinda low... but thats ok... im over and no one noticed so its all good... :-(
i dont know... this is all so weird... im sorry about everything i did... i really hope he eventually somewhat forgives me and we can be friends... i dont put this stuff in my journal and profile to piss him off... he called me a cunt tho... that really hurts... but i dont blame him for being mean to me... i was really mean to him... and i deserve everything ive been given... i wish he would just talk to me about it... instead of completely forgetting me... :-\
i still dont know what to do about the chorus trip... i told mrs. masse im not going... but i need to have a note from my mom to get the money back... i really dont want to go any more... i hope she lets me drop it... she should because then she has like 420$ that she wasnt expecting... i hope she doesnt make me go... im really going to hate it... >:-|
well it was one of those days where i pretended to be happy... i dont want people feeling bad for me or anything... im doing fine... after last night... today felt like everything was going wrong... so i was kinda low... but thats ok... im over and no one noticed so its all good... :-(