Thanks and Going Forward
I just finished reading all the comments from my previous post. I can't reply to them all, so I'm writing a new post to say thank you to everybody. I have taken all your words to heart. Thank you. As someone who has dealt with loss before, with the death of my brother in 2000, I know how difficult it is to find words to say when someone passes away. It feels like whatever you say can't be enough, but believe me, it is enough just knowing people care and are thinking or praying or sending hugs or keeping us in your thoughts. Whatever the case may be. Someone wrote that silence is the only thing one can give in the face of death... and it reminds me of a respectful, meditative (prayerful for some) moment of remembrance--and that is so true.
Needless to say, everything is on a day-to-day basis. I should learn never to promise anything during this time. (The only thing I can promise is to finish what Lotm sent me on time. *grin*) As you can see, I am actually sitting in front of my computer. That in itself has been difficult to do, which is so out of character for me. I have been leaving the house during the day instead, thinking of places to be that are not my empty house while the kids are at school. It is gradually getting easier, though. I would go into what it's like to hear a car lock or a noise outside and think my husband is home, but that is all a given. I am thankful that my brother-in-law is being absolutely wonderful right now. He picked up the girls yesterday and took them to his place for the day, and in a couple weeks will take them for the entire weekend. That is ... I can't even describe how wonderful that is. I have no idea what I am going to do with myself that weekend, but it is wonderful.
Needless to say, everything is on a day-to-day basis. I should learn never to promise anything during this time. (The only thing I can promise is to finish what Lotm sent me on time. *grin*) As you can see, I am actually sitting in front of my computer. That in itself has been difficult to do, which is so out of character for me. I have been leaving the house during the day instead, thinking of places to be that are not my empty house while the kids are at school. It is gradually getting easier, though. I would go into what it's like to hear a car lock or a noise outside and think my husband is home, but that is all a given. I am thankful that my brother-in-law is being absolutely wonderful right now. He picked up the girls yesterday and took them to his place for the day, and in a couple weeks will take them for the entire weekend. That is ... I can't even describe how wonderful that is. I have no idea what I am going to do with myself that weekend, but it is wonderful.