junior status?
I really truly don't remember what free time is.
I haven't had a lifestyle where I could do whatever I wanted since...first grade?
That sucks.
That's why I wanted to graduate in December. I figured that for the spring, while my friends were still in school, I could go off and do whatever the fuck I wanted to. Drive cross-country, work in DisneyWorld, apartment hunt in Manhattan.
There's actually a lot I want to do before I get an apartment and start doing all the audition stuff. Because there probably won't be another time for it.
When else can I take a road trip? I want to take a road trip.
When else can I go around the country, not actually having a solid place to live or a solid job, but just kind of gig around and work where I need to? I want to do that. Maybe it seems cowboyish but I think it's awesome.
I wouldn't mind a few months as a trucker, even.
And then I'd settle down. And then I'd do the normal "actor thing".
When I told my parents that, my mom's first impulse was to say, "Don't you want to be an actress?"
Yes, yes I do, mom. But I haven't even had a chance to be a kid, yet. Because I've been too busy training to be a performer for my whole fucking life.
I didn't want to come to school. Now I can't get away from it. I can easily graduate in December. Easily. Nobody wants me too. And I'm so borderline about if it's really what I want that I guess I'm just going to stay.
Go figure, though, I have to register with the juniors because last semester I completed 87.5 credits...and you needed to finish 88 to register as a senior. So if I WAS leaving next semester, I would never have actually been a senior. I'd have been a three semester junior who spontaneously graduated.
Hopefully I can at least work it so I have a couple days off a week both semesters to go have a life. I only need 12 credits to live on campus. So that's what will be happening.
rantrantrantrantrant
Oh yeah, and the rest of my life is still a mess.
Goodnight.
I haven't had a lifestyle where I could do whatever I wanted since...first grade?
That sucks.
That's why I wanted to graduate in December. I figured that for the spring, while my friends were still in school, I could go off and do whatever the fuck I wanted to. Drive cross-country, work in DisneyWorld, apartment hunt in Manhattan.
There's actually a lot I want to do before I get an apartment and start doing all the audition stuff. Because there probably won't be another time for it.
When else can I take a road trip? I want to take a road trip.
When else can I go around the country, not actually having a solid place to live or a solid job, but just kind of gig around and work where I need to? I want to do that. Maybe it seems cowboyish but I think it's awesome.
I wouldn't mind a few months as a trucker, even.
And then I'd settle down. And then I'd do the normal "actor thing".
When I told my parents that, my mom's first impulse was to say, "Don't you want to be an actress?"
Yes, yes I do, mom. But I haven't even had a chance to be a kid, yet. Because I've been too busy training to be a performer for my whole fucking life.
I didn't want to come to school. Now I can't get away from it. I can easily graduate in December. Easily. Nobody wants me too. And I'm so borderline about if it's really what I want that I guess I'm just going to stay.
Go figure, though, I have to register with the juniors because last semester I completed 87.5 credits...and you needed to finish 88 to register as a senior. So if I WAS leaving next semester, I would never have actually been a senior. I'd have been a three semester junior who spontaneously graduated.
Hopefully I can at least work it so I have a couple days off a week both semesters to go have a life. I only need 12 credits to live on campus. So that's what will be happening.
rantrantrantrantrant
Oh yeah, and the rest of my life is still a mess.
Goodnight.