Wow... it's been some time eh?
So here I am in Florida still.. which is crazy because things have gone so shitty for awhile now. But I don't quit and I know things'll get better... right?
I just need to quit with boys.. I mean I do want a relationship but not really. I don't believe in Love or Dating or anything of that other bullshit.. but there still is a part of me that just wants someone there. And since that is the case, I look for the wrong people to be there. It's always the one's I "count" on that walk all over me.. so you'd think I'd learn. I swear that it must say some sort of WELCOME on my forhead or some shit. I'm the door mat that everyone's been talking about and I seriously need to change that. As hard ass as I pretend to be or want myself to be.. I still give in too easily and get walked all over in the process... ughh shit. I hate it too! I hate the fact that this one boy, I can never say no too, is still in my house right now. He's been around for like 2 months now.. and it's just ugh. I don't even know! Home? Maybe...
I just need to quit with boys.. I mean I do want a relationship but not really. I don't believe in Love or Dating or anything of that other bullshit.. but there still is a part of me that just wants someone there. And since that is the case, I look for the wrong people to be there. It's always the one's I "count" on that walk all over me.. so you'd think I'd learn. I swear that it must say some sort of WELCOME on my forhead or some shit. I'm the door mat that everyone's been talking about and I seriously need to change that. As hard ass as I pretend to be or want myself to be.. I still give in too easily and get walked all over in the process... ughh shit. I hate it too! I hate the fact that this one boy, I can never say no too, is still in my house right now. He's been around for like 2 months now.. and it's just ugh. I don't even know! Home? Maybe...