i was the one worth leaving

[notsobertoday]

i miss the way your beard feels on my neck
i visit you,
did you know that?
the night tricks me, and i'm laying next to you
every night.
do you feel me next to you?
in an ideological sense
more than physical
like how you are here
with me
holding my waist and making me smile

i feel you breathing in my ears
never letting me forget your love
because it's there
unwavering, ever-present
messy, the way i want it
how you want my hair in the morning

we will be together
i won't call it fate
it's more than that
my own Manifest Destiny
so i'm enchanted by a city, and the place he lives
the best things are worth waiting for
i can't wait for the beginning