flippin sweet!
i have come back from the dead.
my life now has meaning, definition.
i have a purpose, a goal.
i am not trying to hard, nor giving up.
i am doing my best to be my best.
i am no longer depressed.
that wasnt supposed to rhyme.
anyway. if i can keep my job (freak things keep happening to seemingly sabotage my job) i will be moving back to Florida (home) towards the end of July. Yes, i am leaving my family (namely my mother), but i know everything will be okay for me. I have gone from wanting to become a physical therapist to a child psychologist, to a fourth grade teacher. children are my passion, i just might have six. they are born with minimal form and they are molded by their experiences. I want a lot of children because i want to make smart, KIND, generous, loving people- the world could really use some more.
Here's the low-down:
I am turning 18 at the end of this month (May 28th, JAX). I have a teacher who has inspired me to become the very best i can be. I have discovered life in myself that i didn't know i had and now i am bound and determind to shine my light on the world. I have confidence. I have knowledge i didn't think i could obtain. I have had several epiphanies over the past year. One thing i have discovered is that the only thing that really matters in this world is love and the ability to show true kindness and acceptance to your enemies. hate is like acid in your heart, it eats away at your being. love is like a warm blanket on a cold night- it just feels good. Though i am writing this, i know there is no convincing anyone to find it in themselves to forgive the world of its wrongdoings but i cant help but to tell everyone of my discovery. It is hard at times to look at someone who has just attempted to ruin your mood by being a complete jerk and smile and bite your tongue, but after you cool down your realize how pointless it is to fight with someone who is obviously just in need of love and attention. that is why people are mean.
okay. enough preaching.
my saturn has 181,000 miles on it and is running strong. i don't need a fancy car, just one that gets me from a to b (maybe c). well, it has to have leopard seat covers also =). i am driving it to FL so if you pray please dont forget to pray for my engine, belt, battery, alternator, struts, tires, and to protect me from those crazy drivers who cant seem to slow down. thanks.
i am moving with only what i can pack into my car. it might even fit more without boxes. eew. that would be a complete mess. anyway, clothes, toothbrush, hair brush, maybe some sheets, all the pictures and crap i have collected over the years, and my guitar are joining me in my big move. i am trying to become a minimalist before i move because then i wont be disappoined when i dont have anything that i used to because i will be supporting myself. well, i am a pretty kickass waitress, hopefully i can get a job at like t.g.i. fridays or outback or something. i would love that. the next couple of years are going to be difficult financially but i know ill come out on the other end.
i love napoleon dynamite. i don't care how popular it is, i still love it.
wow, saturday make-up school can really inspire rambling. bye.
my life now has meaning, definition.
i have a purpose, a goal.
i am not trying to hard, nor giving up.
i am doing my best to be my best.
i am no longer depressed.
that wasnt supposed to rhyme.
anyway. if i can keep my job (freak things keep happening to seemingly sabotage my job) i will be moving back to Florida (home) towards the end of July. Yes, i am leaving my family (namely my mother), but i know everything will be okay for me. I have gone from wanting to become a physical therapist to a child psychologist, to a fourth grade teacher. children are my passion, i just might have six. they are born with minimal form and they are molded by their experiences. I want a lot of children because i want to make smart, KIND, generous, loving people- the world could really use some more.
Here's the low-down:
I am turning 18 at the end of this month (May 28th, JAX). I have a teacher who has inspired me to become the very best i can be. I have discovered life in myself that i didn't know i had and now i am bound and determind to shine my light on the world. I have confidence. I have knowledge i didn't think i could obtain. I have had several epiphanies over the past year. One thing i have discovered is that the only thing that really matters in this world is love and the ability to show true kindness and acceptance to your enemies. hate is like acid in your heart, it eats away at your being. love is like a warm blanket on a cold night- it just feels good. Though i am writing this, i know there is no convincing anyone to find it in themselves to forgive the world of its wrongdoings but i cant help but to tell everyone of my discovery. It is hard at times to look at someone who has just attempted to ruin your mood by being a complete jerk and smile and bite your tongue, but after you cool down your realize how pointless it is to fight with someone who is obviously just in need of love and attention. that is why people are mean.
okay. enough preaching.
my saturn has 181,000 miles on it and is running strong. i don't need a fancy car, just one that gets me from a to b (maybe c). well, it has to have leopard seat covers also =). i am driving it to FL so if you pray please dont forget to pray for my engine, belt, battery, alternator, struts, tires, and to protect me from those crazy drivers who cant seem to slow down. thanks.
i am moving with only what i can pack into my car. it might even fit more without boxes. eew. that would be a complete mess. anyway, clothes, toothbrush, hair brush, maybe some sheets, all the pictures and crap i have collected over the years, and my guitar are joining me in my big move. i am trying to become a minimalist before i move because then i wont be disappoined when i dont have anything that i used to because i will be supporting myself. well, i am a pretty kickass waitress, hopefully i can get a job at like t.g.i. fridays or outback or something. i would love that. the next couple of years are going to be difficult financially but i know ill come out on the other end.
i love napoleon dynamite. i don't care how popular it is, i still love it.
wow, saturday make-up school can really inspire rambling. bye.